Hearts United

My mistake

Sanjana's POV:

I don't know how to react to this situation. I thought everything has become normal and there is nothing to worry about. But I never thought I'd end up in here. My mind is not working at all.

Even today I didn't go to work. I was sitting on the balcony with a cup of coffee in hand and thinking of how to come out of this problem. How to face my husband? how to tell him the truth? He will go mad and surely leave me. Anyone in his place would do so. I have done something that can't be forgiven easily.

My phone rang bringing me out of my thoughts and to see it was the person who is the reason of all my problems.

I left a heavy breath and answered the call.
"Hello!" I said lamely.

"So, darling did you inform your husband?"
He asked joyfully.

"No not yet!" I said as tears fell from my eyes.

"Honey make it soon or else I'll viral this video everywhere and the first copy will go to your father" He said laughing.

"Please Rahul can you stop all this? Why are you doing this to me?" I asked being vulnerable.

"I lost my job, my family thinks of me to be a perverted broker all because of you. I won't let you live so happily"
He said in anger.

"It was your mistake not mine!"
I said in my defence.

"Listen, I don't care! You give the money or work with me, else I'll tell your husband myself. You have only 24hrs"
He said and cut the call.

I dropped my phone and cried my heart out. Why did all this happen? What am I to do? I can't think of anything. I just kept looking at the bright sky with teary eyes.

Again my phone rang and I saw it was my husband.

I wiped my eyes and composed myself. I picked it up.

"Hey, baby you're okay?"
He asked me lovingly.

"No I'm not!" I said honestly and sniffing.

"What's wrong? You want to go to the hospital? Should I come home?" He asked in a worry.

I smiled at his care and concern. Tears fell out again. I just closed me eyes tight and bit my tongue in pain.

"No, I'll manage!"
I said softly biting my lip.

"Baby, tell me clearly? Are you really okay or not?"
He again asked seriously now.

"I'm sorry Kabeer! Please forgive me, it was all my mistake. But I love you loads. I can never love anyone like I loved you. I'm sorry for doing this. I'm very sorry. Just remember I'll always love you"
I said and cut the call.

I've made up my mind. I'm not going to be a burden for him anymore. I can't let him live a life of hell with me. This is my problem, I'll handle it. I took a long breath closing my eyes.

I went into the bedroom, took out the suitcase and quickly just packed whatever I needed the most. At last I picked our one photo frame which Ankur gifted us. I looked around the room for one last time and turned to go. Once again I'm having to leave everything and walk away.

The worst part is that I'm not leaving alone this time.

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After six months:

"Mrs. Singhaniya you're next!" The nurse told me.

I nodded at her sitting on the steel bench with my eight month big belly. I am in Canada, no one knows where I am. I left no trace of me. It's been six months and I'm staying here in a one room flat and working as a receptionist in a near by bakery.

Somehow I have started to live my life alone with my two babies. Yeah I'm carrying twins
I got up slowly and went inside the doctors chamber. She is a very sweet lady. I'm very happy with her treatment. My shop owner recommended me to her and she is even affordable by me. I can't afford a big hospital in my current income so I preferd going to her clinic.

"Hello dear, how are you doing?"
She asked me smilingly as I entered and gestured me to sit.

"I'm ok doctor, just this back pain is unbearable"
I said and sat huffing for breath.

"Are you taking your medicine regularly? And not skipping meals?" She asked writing something on her notepad.

"Yeah doctor!"
I said honestly.

"So ready to know the gender?" She asked in an excited voice.

I just nodded in reply.

"Okay go lay down on the bed let's see how your babies are doing"
She said with a small smile.

I again only nodded and slowly got up from the chair and walked towards the bed and lay down carefully. My back really hurts me. It's not easy to give birth. I thought painfully.

She came to me and gestured to lift up my top. I did as told and then she applied the cold gel over my stomach and started to roll the mouse on my belly.

After looking at the screen for a while she smiled at looked at me. I am eager to know as well

"So here look at your handsome little buds, they have grown really big and are doing absolutely well"
She said smiling at me.

"Hmm thank you doctor"
I said not so affected.

"Aren't you happy?" She asked me strangely.

"To be honest I'm not very happy doctor" I replied to her with a painful face.

"Why? Because you're a single mother?"
She asked me casually.

I just huffed wiping a drop of my stupid tear.

"I see many single mothers who are happy, just because you're single that doesn't mean you can't be happy!"
She said wiping off the gel on my stomach with a tissue.

"My most precious happiness is not with me. The most beautiful moments of life I'm not able to enjoy"
I said with a sad chuckle.

"But that still doesn't change the fact that you aren't the mother" She said sternly.

I gave her a blank expression.

"Look Sanjana, it's up to you wheather you want to be happy or not. Whoever may be the father of these children but you are the mother and that cannot be changed. So I would advise you to be calm and just try your best to be happy for your boys"
She said patting my cheeks.

She got up and so did I. Her motivational speech was lovely but it did not affect me. I have thought every way possible but my mind and heart both never agreed on anything.

I came out slowly walking back home. In the cool evening breeze. I could see different types of life. A mother and daughter laughing about something looking into the phone. An old couple walking hand in hand. A father with his boy and their pet playing inside the park. Vendors selling things to all people around living their normal happy lives.

"Hey, watch out!" I heard someone yell.

I stopped to see there was a big purddle in the middle of the road. I would have just stepped into it.

"Woman can't you see and walk properly? In your condition, you need to be more careful young lady" Yelled that man and walked away.

I took a deep breath of relief and moved to the other side and kept walking.

I reached home and just lay down. Tears rolled down my eyes. I miss him, I miss him every moment. I don't know how he is doing, I want to hug him, I want to be with him. I....I miss him badly.
I thought in pain and worry.

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