Hearts United

Feelings

Kabeer's POV:

I came out of the bathroom to see a very sensitive picture in front of me. I didn't know whether to blink or swallow.
I can see my wife's one breast out and she is in sleep resting her head back on the bedrest with our son sleeping on her lap and her nipple stuck in his mouth.

I walked up close to her and bent lifting up both the fellows and placed them in their cots and kissed their heads. I came back to her and just looking at her face, I got emotional. Only I know the pain I went through without her. The moment Sam told me he had found her location. I ran like a mad dog.

I bended over and held her slowly making her lay down. I buttoned back her shirt. For a minute I felt wired to do it.  Maybe because it has been a very long time.

One long year Kabeer! My heart spoke in agony and cried in pain.

I shrugged my feelings and sat on the other side of the bed. I looked at the kids sleeping in their cot.

"My kids!" My hearts said and swelled with joy.

"Are there really?" My mind asked.

I tilted my head and looked over at her. She is fast asleep
with her lips parted little.
She won't do it, she can never cheat me. She did all of that because she was blackmailed. She was forced to do so, she loves me I know that.

"They are completely yours Kabeer, you can feel it when you hold them close to me!"
My heart replied to me.

I went and again kissed their heads and kept staring at their sleeping figures. This is my family and henceforth, I'm never gonna let them far from me at anycost. I told myself determinedly.

The door was suddenly knocked loudly and Sanjana got up. She sat up rubbing her eyes and looked at me. I gestured her to sit back.

I rushed and opened the door fast to see Shikha di. I gestured her to keep quite. She chuckled and said sorry sheepishly.

"Will you both come down for dinner or should I send it up?" She asked me softly.

"Kabeer you go eat. I'll be here, I even need to change" Sanjana answered before I could.

"Okay, we are waiting!" Di said looking at me and she went back down.

I went back and stood near the kids cot. I'm not able to take my eyes off them. I thought she was pregnant with one baby. But at the time she said 'they' and I went and saw these two guys. I don't know how to say it, but my heart was so full of joy and happiness.

"Kabeer, you go have dinner"
She said standing beside me.

"You go and freshen up first, I'll wait here" I said still with my eyes on my boys.

"Kabeer... I

"Sanjana please, just go. Can I have some time alone with my children or not?"
I asked her being annoyed.

Why does she think of herself to be able to do everything. I thought in irritation.

"Okay!" She said sadly and walked into the bathroom after taking her clothes from the suitcase.

I petted both my kids by touching their soft plum cheeks, red nose, kissing their pink lips. I have kissed them a million times by now.

I can't believe I have two sons. When I held them the first time a kind of feeling arose in my heart that is unexplainable. I myself don't know how to put it in words. My heart cried out of happiness. I thanked God a million times. I never even dreamed of having children and today God has blessed me double. I thought with tears in my eyes.

I was a guy who never believed in love, relationship or family. Yes, I loved my mom and sister but there was something, that I never thought of having my own family. But from the day I loved Saanj everything has changed and today these two have made me complete I feel.

Soon after sometime she came out of the washroom. I was sitting on bed and going through some of my files. I didn't even concentrate on my work for past a year. Ankur only handled everything.

I lifted up my head and our eyes met. She still takes away my breath in every way. I wanted to talk with her and get things cleared between us. But not now, I'm yet not able to accept the truth. Whatever was her situation, I'm not able to.

She too looked at me emotionally. But soon turned and sat in front of the drrsser. She sat and was wiping her hair but I could see her one eye on me through the mirror. I know she is also very upset and hurt, she too has suffered in a different way all alone.

Again the door was knocked but this time softly. But enough for us to hear. She got up immediately and opened to see her friend.

"Guys, Shikha di said to call you both down for dinner. I'll wait here with the kids till you guys come back"
Nandini whispered looking at both of us.

"Ho, Okay" Saanj said casually.

"Yeah, okay you go down first I'll be in five minutes"
I said but looking at my file.

"Hmmmm" I heard Saanj.

I saw her drying the towel in the balcony and came checked both the kids and then walk out. Nandini came and sat beside me.

I looked up at her and she gave me a blank look. But her eyes held some emotion.

"What is it?" I asked wiredly.

"I know things are not good between you two. Sahil told me everything. I know it must be very tough for you both"
She said sad and softly.

I know she cares and loves us. So she is definitely feeling sad and bad for her best friend.

"Don't worry now things are slowly getting back to normal"
I said keeping a steady voice.

"I'm sorry on behalf of my friend. But Kabeer, she is broken into pieces. Only you are the one who can put her back together. She needs you, and I know you need her too" She said firmly with teary eyes.

"You need her...Yes you do!"
My heart answered me.

"You're right we need each other. And I promise you, we will be back together soon. Right now my first priority is to pull back things at work and look for my children because responsibility has grown. I know she will too wait for the correct time. We will sort out everything. You don't worry too much...just, support us"
I said with a half smile.

She looked at me and nodded with a smile too.

"Fine, now go eat up and come soon or else if your kids wake up it's not going to be easy"
She said with a chuckle gesturing me to go.

I nodded got up and went out.
Coming down I saw her sitting at the dinning with my sister and brother in law. Her brother was not to be found.

"Where is Sahil?" I asked as I sat in my place. And yes my wife is sitting right beside me.

"Shikha di sent him out on some work" She answered me.

"Ho okay!" I said and we started eating.

My sister was decussing on all the preparation for tomorrow. Sanjana also shared her ideas. I was quit. Anyways even if I say, my sister will do what she wants at the end. So I let it be. Rajeev jiju also was mostly quite.

Anyhow after dinner we came up and relsesed Nandini from her babysitting. The kids were still asleep so she too lay down quitely. I lay beside her after completing the leftover work and she was already asleep. I slowly moved a stran of hair that was on her face. She still looks beautiful to me. I missed seeing this face, I missed everything about her.

Every morning I woke up without her to an empty bed. My heart would cry loudly. Admiring her face, I don't know when sleep consumed me...

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