behind walls | nomin

8 | crimson

"haha! got no friends today, i see?"

jeno stood at the back powerless, facing away from the commotion. he could not stand watching the person he held tightly in his arms just yesterday, the person he called his love, the person he laughed and enjoyed himself with just this morning, was getting persecuted by who people saw was his friends. 
"aw... did he bump his little finger? thats why?" a mutual acquaintance hyunjin snickered obnoxiously. there was a burst of laughter before jaemin hasted away. their malicious comments and laughter hurt, but jeno not being the warm, affectionate jeno and not seeming to care hurt him even deeper. he knew that jeno was solely acting so for his own good, but he couldnt help but feel a fervent agony as his heart fissures.
jenos feeling was reciprocal. all he wanted to do was to beat down all of them, give jaemin a massive kiss on his forehead and flee the country with him in his arms. he also began realizing how he felt a weird yet amusing sensation in jaemins presence...

was i possibly falling in love?

the day moves past leisurely. the sky remains sombre and dreary throughout the day, the lively sun hidden away from sight.
18:10, the sky darkened and starless, jeno and jaemin stand anew in the vacant parking lot. this time, jaemin looks straight in the others eyes, almost with a leer. he didnt want to bear ill sentiments towards jeno, but he was simply just so greatly hurt.
"listen jaemin, i know a sorry wont do anything, but just know that i never have bad intentions towards you, and i know how much of an pussy i am. please forgive me, and give me time to fix the situation. please be patient with me, jaemin, please trust me." jeno glances at jaemin sorrowfully with remorse, infuriated with himself.
"i trust you, jeno. id never have bad impressions of you intentionally. i totally understand how it is for you right now, and why youre doing certain things... its okay." jaemin flashes a smile for reassurance, but jeno was far from forgiving himself.
"theres one thing i need you to know before we part ways, and that may lead to us parting ways for the last time." he takes a deep breath, not daring to release. he couldnt believe what was to happen. "jaemin, i have feelings for you. i completely understand if you do not feel the same and that things would never be the same as before and if ive simply just ruined everything and..." 
"i feel the same. i cant... believe it." jaemin exclaims, shadowing the silence which returned as fast as it had left.
nobody spoke. they just stood facing each other yet avoiding gazes, grasping each others hands under the moonlit sky. everything was in reposed tranquility. 

you
hey u up?

jaemin
yes, hi:)

you
hi:))
wyed at 1am

jaemin
assignments
u?

you
idk lwk missing u .. jk thas weird
u think we could manage some time together tmrw?
or today since its alr past midnight lmfao

jaemin
yeaaaa ofc
i think ima be free the whole day
wht u got in mind?

you
ngl lots
whats ur ideal date

jaemin
lmfao idm if its u
u choose im fine with wtv

you
wellll
idk either so u choose<3

jaemin
i srs dk wht do u like to do?

you
no but fr anything w u so choose

jaemin
no just choose fucker

you
an idea suddenly popped up my head
jkjk

jaemin
u need jesus jeno but love u for that

you
come over tmrw and we can see what we feeling like?

jaemin
sounds great

you
lets do so then
now go to bed ur gna need energy tmrw

jaemin
i will dw
u rest as well

you
i will if u do

jaemin
alr then, promise

you
promise

jaemin
goodnight then
love uuu

you
goodnight love
i love you too

jeno tries to keep his promise, but thoughts bedim his mind, causing trouble in his head as well as his bed. mainly was he worried of the issues in school, but also his and jaemins personal lives. his mothers response is unpredictable and dismaying as was jaemins familys. he shifts his focus towards the upcoming weekend instead and eventually manages to fall asleep in solace. 

the next morning was pleasantly breezy. a sweet atmosphere had laid itself with a birds melody. the sun hung dimmed in the bosom of a fog. 9am, jaemin was finishing tidying his room. nervousness had clamped itself through him and was hiding in his blood. he yet struggled to believe what had happened the previous evening. at around 10am, he received the days first message sent by his jaemin.

jeno<3
gm love

you
gmm

jeno<3
wyd?

you
just eating breakfast hbu?

jeno<3
kinda just got up lol

you
soo when u wna meet?

jeno<3
idk around 12 and we can go out for lunch?

you
sounds great!

jeno<3
great^^ lets meet at the parking lot

you
do so<3

jeno<3
see you love<3

you
see youu<<3

jaemins heart fluttered in an incomprehensible manner. he swallows deeply, trying to calm himself down.

"youre early!" jeno yells from afar. they had found each other under the dull sky. jaemin threw himself into the warm arms of the other, suffocating himself with overwhelming euphoria. jeno smelt so amazing.

jenos watch showed the digits "11:58" as they walked along the sidewalk. excitement and bliss crawled along the pair. a connection of ecstasy attached between their hearts.

eventually, they agreed on taking a ride to their local restaurant, where they stayed until the sky was at its bluest and the sun was at its brightest. they spent the rest of their day at jenos home, where immense affection was interchanged. 

as jaemin exited through the front door, a trail of roses tinted crimson was left behind his footsteps, its fierce scent heaving jeno down to the cold, marble floor, as well as obstructing his sight.