behind walls | nomin

20 | baby dont like it

the bedsheets were ripped in two, 

mirroring the way jaemins mind was divided. sharp spears of anxiety pierced through the dense clouds of pleasure, creating fierce storms within him. 

jenos hands were gripping his hips with a firm assurance. each finger anchoring them both amidst the swirling currents of their emotions. jaemins bare chest was forced against the naked mattress, and cold air caressed his back. his screams and moans were muffled by the cotton pillow his face was meeting. his vision was blurred and his face was wet of sweat and saliva.

what was happening to me?

all jeno could sense during that moment was heat. an internal volcano erupting, its molten core unleashing relentless surges of hot lava through his veins. the internal blaze incinerated every sensible thought, leaving in its wake only a desolate landscape of smoldering ash where once clarity reigned. 

his nails dug deep into jaemins frail skin. his body felt so soft against his firm hands. jaemins naked back looked so smooth and defined, yet so vulnerable. he grasped jaemins soft hair from behind, causing a faint moan. 

"i love you, jaemin. so fucking much. youre my only, forever."

their everlasting contact continued expanding the translucent mist of bliss. with every thrust, every slap of skin, every muffled grunt, the mist leisurely thickened into smoke. jeno felt it tightening around his neck, suffocating him. jaemin felt it fill his lungs, like poison he felt it spreading through his disintegrating body.

in one moment, everything blanked.

slow rhapsodies in white began playing.

jeno collapsed to the side, his body trembling with exhaustion. he felt as though his brain was filled with millions of unfamiliar substances, each bringing him waves of ecstasy he had never known. reality felt distant, like a faint whisper in the mayhem of sensations engulfing him.

jaemin let his body sink deeply into the mattress. it was as if satan himself was orchestrating a tempest around him, with the ferocity of a storm of dogs and cats clawing at his senses. he was drowning within himself, having to gasp for the repose he desperately sought.

"jaemin..." 

jeno finally spoke after what felt like eternities of silence.

"jeno."

jaemin turned over in prostration, his muscles protesting with each movement as he shifted on the unforgiving mattress. he was too worn out to react to the sharp sting of soreness that shot through his back.
slowly, consciousness began to reclaim its hold, pulling him back from the murky depths of unconsciousness. his vision gradually cleared, revealing the dim outlines of the room as he blinked away the remnants of sin.
shadows danced across the walls and sang choirs. everything was painted in a ghostly hue.

"i love you. i dont deserve you."
"shut up, jeno."

jaemin wrapped his arms around jenos defined figure. his fingers danced in his hair.

"when are your parents home, love?"
jaemin groaned. "what time is it?" he mumbled in his arms.
"i dont know. i cant really move either." jeno chuckled.
"whatever. lets just go to sleep."
"no, jaemin." he cooed before struggling but finally succeeding to reach the phone on the bedside table. "its soon 6. when were your parents gonna be home again?"
"8, i think. im so tired. can you set an alarm at 7?" jaemin yawned.
"of course, my precious. sleep well."

as the piercing sound of the alarm invaded the room, jaemin groaned, slowly waking up to find himself cocooned within the sleeping embrace of jenos arms. gently, trying to disturb as little as possible, he reached out a stiff arm to silence the alarms relentless ring. his muscles ached with a dull, persistent soreness. catching a glimpse of jenos serene expression in the darkness, he chose to let him remain in the clasp of sleep while trying his best to clean up the mess they had made.

jenos eyes fluttered open as the overhead lights flickered to life, abruptly pulling him from the depths of sleep. he yawned and stretched his limbs. glancing around the room, he found himself in mild surprise at the neat state of the room. every surface was neat and every item in its place. there was no hint of the previous chaos and no trace of his presence. as he snuggled up against the soft duvet that laid over him, he peered through the lingering veil of sleepiness to admire jaemin, who was busying himself quietly around the room. the sight of him, so focused and graceful, lit a comforting fire in jenos heart.

"you shouldve woken me up earlier. i wouldve helped." jeno sat up and rubbed his heavy eyelids.
"oh good morning, love. dont worry about it. you looked so peaceful, i just couldnt disturb you." jaemin placed the broom down and threw himself on the bed, suffocating jeno with hugs.
"youre so adorable." his voice was muffled beneath jaemins clothed chest.
"oh, its nothing. did you sleep well?" jaemin hopped down the bed.
"better than ever." jeno couldnt hold back the widening smile, knowing that he was completely genuine.
"thats great. you can grab anything you want from the kitchen if youre hungry." jaemin went back to sweeping the floor.
"its okay, baby. what time is it?"
"7:36. maybe you should get dressed. your clothes are on the end of the bed." jaemin told him. "also, youre welcome to stay for longer if you want."
"but werent your parents coming home 8?"
"yes, but i messaged them and asked if you could stay, and they said yes."
"oh, alright. what a great way to meet your parents for the first time." jeno chuckled and put on the neatly folded clothes on him.
"right." jaemin giggled.
"let me help you."

"hey you! arent you the little wimp who lied about your sisters death just to sugarcoat the fact that youre a disgusting little faggot?"

jaemin ran his fingers roughly through his hair, trying desperately to block out the thoughts and voices that threatened to overwhelm him. he squeezed his eyes shut, each breath an effort to clear his mind of the chaos that buzzed like static at the edge of his consciousness. he needed to focus, to regain control, but that nauseating voice clung tightly, refusing to be ignored.

"thats what i thought, you useless cunt! keep running!"

"SHIT!"