she was one step closer to her desires.
he was one day closer to freedom.
jeno shut his eyes tightly, unable to bear the sight before him, despite having the clearest view of the fight. he continued to fail over and over again to shut out the cruel mix of mocking shouts and desperate cries. jaemin, caught in the midst of the storm, stood silent and motionless, as if his body had forgotten how to move. jeno was mentally frozen. jaemin was physically frozen.
"do i look like i care about jaemins sister? imagine living such a bad life to end it."
the entire school fell silent. jaemin felt as if a spear had impaled him, draining every ounce of his blood. jenos heart plummeted, leaving him gasping for breath. the perpetrator stood there, smiling a heartless smile, eyes cold and unwavering as they glared at jaemin. jaemins knees began to shake uncontrollably. was the earthquake in his head real?
"what the fuck is wrong with you!"
donghyuck, incandescent with rage, emerged from the flabbergasted crowd. without hesitation, he swung his fists toward the perpetrators head, each blow fueled by his fury. the sound of merciless punches echoed through the silent school, punctuated by their loud shouts and grunts. jaemin, overwhelmed, shut his eyes and let himself fall.
jeno couldnt help but cry as he slumped down in the backseat of his drivers car. guilt overflowed within him, an unrelenting torrent of regret and self-hatred.
he had the power to stop any harm from coming to jaemin, and he knew that, but yet he had selfishly kept it all to himself. his skin broke under the pressure of his own fingernails as he dug them in, punishing himself for not taking action against the perpetrator. he knew, that he was fully capable of revenge, of standing up for jaemin, even if it meant just a small act of defiance. yet, he had remained seated, even after jaemin had fallen to the floor.
the image of jaemins collapse replayed endlessly in his mind, a cruel loop that fed his remorse.
tears streamed down his face, mixing with the anguish that weighed heavily on his chest. he had failed jaemin when it mattered most, when it was his time to step up as his boyfriend, when it shouldve been nobody else other than him who stood up for him and protected him. yet, he was selfish, and feared only for himself. his soul felt torn, leaving him in a state of despair he couldnt escape.
jeno sat on his bed, desperation gnawing at him as he repeatedly pressed the call button on jaemins contact, but to no avail.
"fuck!" he repeated to himself, the regret suffocating him. he was frightened, he didnt know what he would do without jaemin. tears streamed down his face as he mercilessly punched himself in the face, punishing the person he despised. his reflection in the mirror seemed like a stranger, a weak and cowardly figure unworthy of jaemins trust and love. the guilt was unbearable, constantly reminding him of his failure. the void jaemins absence would create was too terrifying to consider, as he lay there consumed by sorrow, and the tiniest hope for a chance to make things right again.
my frvr
please stop calling me
jenos heart sank. slowly and painfully.
you
please jaemin
let us talk
my frvr
we can talk later
you
are you coming to school tomorrow?
my frvr
no
im locked up in a crisis center
you
what??
love
did u attempt
my frvr
no
they think i will
you
im so sorry
please know
if i lose you
i lose myself
im leaving with you my love
but ik what i did was disgusting and unforgivable
but u have all time in the world to forgive me or not
my frvr
its not ur fault
im not mad at u
i love you
pls rest its late
you
please dont love me after what i did to you
i failed you
its not even the first time
i dont deserve you
my frvr
go to bed
ill try to talk to u tmrw
you
can i visit u tmrw
my frvr
idk
ill think ab it
goodnight
you
goodnight my love
i love you so much
and im sorry again
i love you forever jaemin
sleep well
jeno cried. the tears of guilt were endless, flowing uncontrollably down his face. he tried to close his eyes and drift away, but the thoughts were unavoidable, like a relentless storm pounding on the walls of his mind. the moment kept replaying in his head, tearing him apart piece by piece. his cheek had turned purple and his mouth began to hint at a taste of blood. he felt utterly helpless, trapped in a lethal cycle within himself.
"i like it, chae. that will do something."
"its a good video, right?"
"its great. airdrop me it."
"do you know why jeno is like that?"
"do know not know about his psychopathic bloodline? his past? he should be imprisoned right now if he hadnt corrupted the law. its all in his head. the thinks the world is under his control. thats why we are doing this."
"doesnt that put our lives at risk?"
"youll find out."
"mark?"
"hm?"
"karina had me wondering... is jeno actually dangerous?"
"nah. im not talking about that."
"what? what do you mean?"
"please, just drop me off somewhere else." jeno begged his driver. his mother had left him with no choice but to attend, insisting that he couldnt afford to miss another day. but jeno didnt care about school, he couldnt bring himself to face the world right now. he didnt want to socialize. he didnt want to think about the whispers and stares, the pitying looks and judgmental glances. he didnt want to see the faces of those who had wronged jaemin, with their cruelty etched in his mind like a scar.
all day, jenos mind was consumed by thoughts of jaemin. he shouldve been with him right now, apologizing, supporting and loving him. he shouldve just ran away, ran through the mental storm to him despite being nearly 3 miles away.
"im not fucking hungry, and im not damn suicidal! please, get me out of here!" jaemin snapped. his cheeks were raw and stinging from the tears that had flowed all night, leaving tracks of sorrow that were imprinted into his skin. he held his head in his hands, his fingers tangling in his hair as he cried out in frustration and overwhelming despair. his mind was perturbed from everything that had happened, yet hollow. his heart had a gaping wound, and only bled loneliness and fear.
where was jeno?
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Fanfictionjeno was amongst the fierce and feared in his school. he had picked out his next victim, but something gets in the way. something whom holds the surprising bravery against him, something whom lits a spark in him, something whom he slowly and quietly...
