Evanescent Dreams

26. Heart for you

Ah. It's her again. 

This time, Lin Xingren found herself in her bustling fourth grade classroom. It was the beginning of the school year, and the little girl was sitting on the table besides her with a grumpy face. 

"Hii," a classmate sitting next to the little girl bravely approached her. 

"Why!" the little girl's rant startled the people on the table,"why is buddy not in this class? Why did we not get in the same class! Why!"

"Who's buddy? "

"Buddy is just buddy. Or you can call her Huang Li, cuz she's only my buddy."

"Ohh, that super kind looking Korean girl with the pony tail from class A?"

"Yeah, she's my buddy."

"Oh. Cool? " the classmate's face was getting twisted with unease. 

The little girl went on talking nonstop about her play date with her buddy the past Saturday. The classmate besides her could be anyone, she didn't care. 

"You know," the classmate interrupted, wanting to change the subject, "I also live close to you. We can also have a playdate this Saturday or something."

"No. My buddy is my bff and I don't go to play dates without her."

"Loll, can you not live without Huang Li? Does she also think about you that way?" the classmate finally revealed her impatience. 

 "What do you mean?"

Did she also think of you that way...

Does he also think of me this way...

Will he also think of me this way after he knows...

Ah.

Seems like I finally lost my mind.

I was insane. I am still completely insane. Lin Xingren! Wake up!

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Lin Xingren accidentally groaned out loud on her desk in the classroom.  She quickly turned her head away from her classmates. The windows next to Lin Xingren were open, and she could see the diligent birds speeding across a blue but glum sky. She gazed for longer, and saw Ye Zhen's reflection from the other side of the classroom. 

Buzz. Buzz. 

The surroundings and her classmates sounded like construction noise during ones sleep. It hit her with reality, making her feel more insane about herself. 

Why am I wearing emerald green sweatpants? Gosh. 

Shoot. The bathroom's off limits. At the time I most need it...Wait. Xiao Yu died there. Shoot. The bathroom will never be the same for me again. Nooo! my safe hiding spot...

Is he looking at me? 

Lin Xingren shook her head and almost banged it on the table. Whatever she tried thinking about, her thoughts always came back to Ye Zhen and last night in the playground. 

It was then she realized from the reflection in the window that Ye Zhen was standing right next to her. 

  "Hi-hi." She turned around and almost slid off her chair.

His eyes crinkled, "hey. "

"What's up?"

"We're planning to have a meeting at Ms. Mei's office during break. Remember to come."

"Oh, right."

She looked up, but he had already walked back to his chair and started reading the textbook.