JAKE'S POV
it was quicker than i thought.
how i was laughing with you,
talking,
holding your hand-
and there you are now, six feets under somewhere.
Tell me how should i accept this kind of death?
How will i let go of you, if you died in such ways-
If only i didn't wake up that night,
if only i didn't lie and say that im hungry..
if only i didn't leave you alone that time,
you won't leave me this way.
I was lost after hearing about your disease,
I don't want you to leave me as i love you so much,
I knew about the consequences,
but i insist on staying with you because theres no one like you in this world.
i tried my best to be there for you,
to spend my time with you for the very last time,
expecting a slow ending for our love story.
But this all was unexpected my dear.
I didn't expect this too happened way too quickly.
This is not what i prepare myself to,
this is not the ending i want with you,
this is not how it's suppose to be.
It's my fault.
I shouldn't have leave you alone.
If i didn't leave, this wouldn't happened.
If it did, i should be there to protect you.
Protect you from that killer-
Why does the fate have to be cruel to you,
and to me.
Everytime happiness come to me,
something will always happened.
Do i always deserve to be this kind of sad?
Do i not deserve to love or be love?
Why.
Why?
My love, i think cupid is being way too cruel to me.
Sigh.
You been through in a lot of pain,
you suffer enough, and i couldn't bear seeing you in pain actually.
Thought that slow dying would be pain broke me,
Yet fate was full with suprises.
I hate myself for your tragic death.
For your painful death.
I should be the one to feel that, and not you.
If someone have to be killed,
its me.
anyone, but please not you.
I know you wouldn't like seeing me this way,
but what can i do? i love you so much that this all hurts me.
I should be happy that your suffering ended,
but, the way it ended– pain me.
My love,
My sweetheart,
where are you?
i need someone to spend time with,
to give and share all my love.
Isn't it obvious that i don't want anyone else,
only you.
Im grieving,
grieving.
constantly grieving
I mourn what could have been,
what will not be,
what i can't save.
my so sweet Aein,
my heart sobbed as my eyes can't anymore.
it whispered,
hitting me with the painful truth,
that not matter what i do,
not matter how i get mad to the innocents,
not matter how i much tears my eyes cried,
you will not come back.
you will never come home.
but i know you go somewhere better than home,
you find much more than just a home there.
i wish you an endless happiness always,
although i just lost mine ...
this is not goodbye, my love.
Let's see each other again, Nam Aein
Rest well for now.
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✓ sweetheart. [jake]
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