I wake up and check the time on my phone, only to realize it's 2am. I may or may not have been lying to the team about the amount of sleep I've been getting. Ever sense I was little living with an abusive father, I've never had a good night sleep. Waking up from nightmares drenched and sweat, or simply waking up because I'm worried that one night he'll be standing in the room ready to hurt me. Every night I wake up almost 4 times restless. My best bet is to lay back down and try to go to sleep
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"Wakey wakey" I hear Alejandro shouting knocking on every door one time, but never once mine
I'm not sure why he's not knocking on my door yet, but I'm too tired to even drape my legs over the bed. So instead, I stay laying my bed under the covers. After a few minutes go by a gentle knock hits my door
"come in" I lowly say
The door slowly opens, it's Alejandro. He looks at me with a concerned face and takes a step in
"You alright Adira? You're usually up by now" he says with his head tilted to the side
"Yea I just uh- haven't got up"
"Alright. Well, breakfast is ready" he says softly with a smile and walks out my room, quietly closing the door behind him
"Shit" I whisper and I step out of bed and head to the bathroom. A take a shower the second I noticed I didn't smell that amazing. I dry off put my hair in a messy bun, putting on grey sweatpants and a hoodie, paired with some white socks. I walk down the halls and enter the living room, all of them except ghost and soap are eating
"Good morning" Soap smiles, and gives me my plate of food and coffee
"Thank you Soap" I smile back and head to the chair that Ghost is sitting on, because somehow, it's always the only one left. The guys are all watching football with the tv loud enough that I don't think they would hear a simple conversation at this point
I sit down and let out the breath I've been holding in and I take a sip of my coffee first and set it on the coffee table. I start to dissociate right after I put my cup on table
Some how, I can feel a pair of eyes on me. But I can't move or speak
"Staring again mate?" Ghost laughs but follows with silence as he stares at me, noticing no reaction
"Adira?" He says once again and still no luck
But finally, I feel Ghosts hand rest on my knee. I break out of it and look to him and I'm now slightly anxious, thankfully no one else noticed. I quickly move my knee away from him
"Um" I say as I search my mind for words to come out of my mouth, but I'm stuck
"sorry" I quickly look down to my plate and take a few bites, following with a sip of coffee
I stand up and walk to my room, sitting down on my bed
•Unspecified pov•
"What happened?" Price says coming into the room, now noticing she's gone
"I didn't even notice she left. that's odd" Alejandro replies
"She probably just went to take a shower or something" Gaz said as his mouth is stuffed with scrambled eggs
"She already took a shower Gaz" Soap says looking at gaz as if he's dumb
Not once did Ghost speak. He just sat there staring at his hands in his lap. He knew what was happening once she didn't say something back. He knew that something wasn't right
•Back To Adira POV•
I sit at the side of my bed embarrassed of what happened. It's not the fact that ghost seen it, it's the fact that it happened at all
A knock comes to my door. After I stay quiet for a little to long for the person outside waiting, the door opens slowly as if they want to give me enough time to say 'get out'
The door is fully open and surprisingly, it's price
"You alright there Adira?" The second price asked me if I'm fine, my eyes slowly gaze to the floor
"I'm fine" I lie, as I keep my eyes looking to the floor
"No you're not" Price says as he walks in and closes the door behind him
He sits next to me and stays quiet for a few seconds, giving me the chance to talk
"I used to say the same thing. Listen Adira. If you're dealing with something you don't have to tell me, but I'll be willing to listen. I'm here. I just don't want you to think you have to go through it alone okay? "
Tears drip from my eyes as my jaw shakes. I slowly lift my head up, looking at price to my right. All I can do is cry. Price opens his arms and hugs me. Tight.
"I knew something wasn't right" he whispers as I cry into his chest
"I dissociate and It's like time is stopped you know? I just feel stuck" I breath out
"its alright" He says as he rubs the top of my head, brushing his hand over my hair. It sends a wave of comfort over my body
I don't tell anyone about my childhood. Except price. Price knows. Every detail. Every action. Every emotion. He knows what really happened and he kept a promise not to tell anyone, not even the team. The disgusting man i call my father, caused this
I let go of price and wipe the tears from my
eyes. "Thank you" I breath out
"I'm always here" he says and gives me a comforting smile before he gets up and walks out the room. As he closes the door I hear a conversation outside
•Unspecified Pov•
Ghost walks up to Adiras door only to see Price walking out
"Don't go in there Ghost" he whispers to ghost
"What happened?" Ghost says concerned
"She'll be fine" Price says as he quickly walks away
Ghost stands at Adiras door, looking to price as he walks away, deciding whether to obey Prices orders or not. He starts thinking about wether he should've said something earlier, and that he understands. But the thing is, that's not how ghost is wired. He's not some sweet cuddly man who releases his feelings, emotions, and past. He's just not. He has been through unimaginable things. But for some reason, he wanted her to be an exception in his heart, but it was holding him back
So what did he do?
He walked away
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Simon Ghost Riley 'Tough Love'
FanfictionAdira Blair, known as Rival, is a woman who can handle her own without a thing being handed to her. She learned that her skills and personality could be used to her advantage, although, even in a practically male dominated industry, she was still de...
