Reasons to Stay // Hyunin

~10~

After an hour or more of Chan trying to get closer with Jeongin (maybe it worked a little bit) he then dropped Jeongin off at Felix's home. "Have fun!" he gave a big smile to Innie who weakly responded with an "okay." He walked up the driveway to the front door. He turned and waved bye to Chan in the car who in return gave him the "remember to smile!" motion and waved back. Jeongin tried to smile. It came out a little bit; he was too nervous. Yes, hopefully in just a few minutes he would make it up with Felix and everything'd be okay.

As he waited, standing there holding the basket of snacks, Jeongin could hear loud music and people laughing and yelling. That only got the shy boy more nervous. Maybe Felix would be so wrapped up with everyone else that he wouldn't even want to talk to Jeongin.

The door suddenly swung open. It wasn't Yongbok. The guy looked at Jeongin and blinked twice, like he couldn't figure out who Jeongin was. He looked Innie up and down, making him feel extremely uncomfortable. Why couldn't the man just LET HIM IN?! "Um, excuse me...?" Jeongin said awkwardly to the guy staring at him. Where was Felix?

A guy from the back saw him standing there and said, "Hey let him in." The guy at the door obeyed, as Jeongin realised the voice came from Choi Hakkun, one of the most popular guys at the school. But as he stepped away from the door, Hakkun stepped forward to face Innie himself. "Hey hey, sexy" he smirked as it was just the two of them on the porch now.

What the– Jeongin's eyes widened. "Um hi, uh, where's Felix?"

"Doesn't matter where Felix is," Hakkun replied. Jeongin looked past him into the living room. No sign of Felix, but he did see bottles on the tables and in people's hands. If Felix wasn' there, then he might as well just leave.

As Hakkun stepped forward, Jeongin stepped back and down the steps. "U-um, I think I should g-go..."

"No you shouldn't." Hakkun took his arm and led him back up the steps. "Come in. Lixxie went to buy something real quick and he'll be back soon. You can stay with me."

Did he really want to stay with him though? "O-okay..." Jeongin whispered hoarsely and let Hakkun lead him inside. It was noisy and made Jeongin feel immediately exhausted. He sat down beside Hakkun because he told him to. What else was there to do anyways? He wished he were at Chan's house. There's a lot better things to do than to just sit around and watch underage drinking.

He was wondering why Hakkun should call him "sexy." He looked the same as everyday and hadn't been called that. He was probably drunk.

Jeongin wasn't really paying attention to anything going on around him until he felt a hand rest on his thigh. "Hey Jeongin, can I call you baby~" Hakkun suddenly asked, and before Jeongin could answer, he finished with an "All right baby. Just thought I might ask your permission."

He's drunk. Innie wished he had never come. Felix wasn't even here, and he had missed out on a night with his crush, Hyunjin. He stiffened as Hakkun gave his thigh a squeeze and started stroking him. Jeongin tried to stay calm but 1) he's really ticklish and 2) Hakkun's hand was slowly travelling up his inner thigh and Jeongin was not curious to see where it'd end up. He gently took Hakkun's hand and put it in Hakkun's own lap, then gave the guy an apologetic (not really) smile and said, "Sorry."

Hakkun looked at him like what did you just do?! But then he just shrugged and held up his bottle, "Want some?" to which Jeongin said "no" because honestly even though he was interested in drinking it, he was more scared of being caught; it was illegal.

Hakkun got up. "Hey baby, come with me to the kitchen, get something to eat."

Jeongin should have known better not to follow a drunk dude to someplace alone but he got up for some reason because what, maybe he was hungry. ( He shouldn't be, he just ate cakes and drank frappuccinos with Chan-hyung.)

In the kitchen, Jeongin pulled out his phone which was ringing messages. But as soon as he was caught off guard he felt himself being pushed onto a wall. He quickly put his phone on the nearby counter before he might drop it.

Jeongin gasped as Hakkun roughly pinned his shoulders to the wall and with the other hand touched around Jeongin's collar before sliding it down his shirt. Jeongin frantically grabbed at the guy's wrist and struggled to pull it out, to no avail. He felt Hakkun's hand on his bare chest and it reminded him of that incident in middle school...

No he couldn't let that happen to himself again. The emotional pain was still there and he could still imagine the physical pain and embarrassment that he had suffered years ago. If he didn't stop Hakkun now, it would only go downhill.

So Jeongin did what he read from books that girls were supposed to do when they were being harassed by a guy, kick him hard between the legs. And kick hard he did. It worked better than Jeongin expected, and maybe he would have thought it was entertaining how Hakkun immediately let go and became weak, then sank to the ground and cried in pain; but Jeongin was too scared for his life at the moment and he ran out of the kitchen as fast as he could, ran upstairs to Felix's bedroom and locked the door, then ran into Felix's bathroom and locked it. He slumped against the wall and tried to catch his breath. Then out of a rage, he wildly looked around to find something, anything that was sharp...

He found hair-cut scissors in the bathroom closet, took them, and started stabbing his left arm with it. Ouch. It hurt more than Jeongin had remembered. Maybe because he hadn't hurt himself a lot recently. Why? Had he been enjoying life so much that he had skipped out on his daily cutting?

Jeongin crawled over to the bathtub and lay on his side, watching his blood flow...