Ishq ka Raang Safed Piya

27.Mantra Mugdha

Many a times in life when we drift into normality of our normal ordinary life very easily especially after lot of hardship and casualties,the normal and simplicity of life seems hard to believe,difficult to trust and not so familiar to live....we are not able to digest and trust that we can be happy finally...that everything will be easy going and smooth in our life without any complexities & difficulties....this was the same case with Shehnaaz....sleeping with him...and sleeping with normalcy was uncommon...so unusual after all that happened some time back and she has gone through in her life it was too difficult to sleep into a simple normal life for her.

As she felt cold & exposed all of a sudden as he opened her brassiere ,throwing it away and  lapped on her mounds.As his lips and mouth started roaming vigorously in circular motion and his tongue made irregular pattern on her taut peaks and areola she felt cold with the moistness of his actions on her breasts as he deepened the kiss ,tasting her buds  ...rather melting down with the flame of his trust,companionship & longing, she just freezed under his heat....on contrast so much heat that she felt parched,thirsty as her mouth dried of any emotions & feel ....but he was too much thirsty to consider her dry yet cold eyes & actions......she was cold by actions..he was dry...too dry...as his actions showed his starveness as his teeth perched upon feasting her bare bosoms in turns...giving utmost attention and tasting each one of her twins in turns one by one with every passing second..she felt numb..idle and motionless...her blood has stopped transfusing may be...and her throat stopped secreting saliva as his saliva and moisture was all over her bare body ....

She felt everything yet felt NOTHING!!!He felt she is..she was his everything...and for him everything that belonged to her..even her body was his only...for him.

She felt she doesn't belong to this moment...and it just passes away as fast and as soon as possible and he felt there is no world beyond this moment...and this moment never ends....

She saw her cloth piece lying lazily from corner of her eyes...eyes which were wide open now,staring the ceiling and her mind was blocked as he was so busy playing with her assets ...his eyes were totally on those beauty of hers...he could not see anything else now...

The temperature had risen up for him and fallen down for her as she felt exposed & felt like cold & so she wanted to cover her half bare body desperately either by the bed sheet on which she was lying or the nearby duvet or anything she could find out to cover her up with...why this feeling of being bare ,raw and naked infront of her own husband is so humiliating....no !!..she choose wrong word may be...it is different?!...may be scary or thrilling or adventurous may be...what it is?...she argued in her mind...gave analytical reasons countering every adjective but could not pinpoint exact word /adjective to the feel which she was undergoing.

Does every women under her man feel like this? ...which she was feeling?...does every girl feel like this in course of becoming a women..,in order to consummate her marriage,purpose of a wedded life?...does every women feel like all this...the mermaid of emotions kept asking her...or she is the only odd case?...she doesn't knew what &  how to contemplate rather did not wanted to ponder on this much as She felt naked under him...no...she was naked half or full but she was naked actually...her modesty was open on view for someone..but wasn't that someone was her own husband!!!?...

Isn't it's her duty to abide by her husband's need and also one of those 7 vows of her marriage to satiate the physical need of intimate married life!?...She knew he was not wrong wanting it...she was his wife after all...legally wedded women of him!!...and he was doing nothing wrong..the masculine stereo she was feed and lived upon knew that all male...all husbands do the same thing,fulfil the physical demand of body whenever,wherever they want to,so as he...he had already shown enough patience,very uncommon if his times..how could she deny and resist then!?..no...no way!