Ishq ka Raang Safed Piya

47.Chaand ka falsafa

"Is your husband ready...he knows about the pregnancy and your wish to abort it...right?".Asked Dr.Sanyal.

Shehnaaz said hearing doctor Sanyal..."wo taiyar nahi hai...kabhi nahi manenge..kabhi nahi...".She said.

"Shehnaaz 3 mahine se jyada ho chuke hai....It is not recommended and can be very risky...You should have been more careful in starting only.....apne periods track karti to ye sab itna mushkil hua hi nahi hota...waise to jab tak fetal pole ya fetus ka heartbeat na aaye usko live entity nahi mante...but yours has surpassed that phase.. atleast main to suggest nahi karoongi aur na hi I will help you in the procedure,main jab kuch crucial hota hai tabhi...you know...par agar tumne faisla le hi liya hai to....someone else will do that for you,assisted by me as I feel it is not right at the moment,ethically and medically also I am against abortion this late without any valid reason...married couples me bacche hona to saans lene jaisa normal hai na...fir kyon?...saying that you have to bear a child...all good and bad related to it,the symptoms,sickness,hormonal disturbances,the before and after pain,all the complication,even the never ending scars and long lasting stretch marks on your body also....

"MTP Act 1971,gives you right to abort your baby...you seek safe abortion services on grounds of contraceptive failure, an increase in gestation limit to 24 weeks for special categories of women..You have right and it is you wish...no one can stop you to do that...isliye..main tumhe dawa likh kar de deti hoon oral to make it easy ,smooth and less painful..mangwa lena ab mann aur jarurat ho...Will go for D& C...uske pehle ek baar detailed USG karwana hoga tumhara..kal padso hi ho payega..uske bad hi ye procedure karenge...and after that you need to be in observation for sometime and need to take rest as much as you can...for atleast a week to overcome the mental and physical repercussions.".Dr.Sanyal explained...the procedure in detail with every minute details and terms as she hear her.

Hearing about killing her own child was indeed sinful and she felt loosing the courage to do so....but alot was on take for her!..

"janti hoon baccha tumhara hai aur choice bhi... ....baccha karna hai ya nahi ye ek maa ka choice hota hai poori tarah se..fortunately or unfortunately a father has no say in this as per law...par soch samajh kar faisla logi to sahi hoga...".Dr.Sanyal said shrugging her head and looking at helpless Shehnaaz.

"And here Sidharth was not even talking to her...whom to discuss then?...and the discussion was toxic and ugly to an extent which they have not imagined also.

"You know in my opinion, a child in marriage is never unwanted..it can be unplanned but never unwanted...".Dr.Sanyal said looking at emotionless face of Shehnaaz.

She knew her face was devoid of any color of emotions right now but her heart was not...she was a mother after all....she has faith in her instincts and experience.....but...there are exceptions as well.

"Your baby seems super fine and healthy in my ultrasonography...almost 15 weeks...abhi tak to uske almost sare body parts like mouth,ears,hands even finger and nails bhi develop kar gaye hai..why?...think patiently and wisely...

"Maine tumse kam age ki ladkiyon ko bhi khushi khusi maa bante dekha hai..in very odd and not so good conditions...bina shadi ke bhi maa bante dekha hai...widows ko bhi...single mothers......mushkil hota hai ,bahut jyada...impossible nahi...kuch ke liye wo baccha bojh hota hai to kuch ke liye jeene ki eklauti wajah...kisi ka andherapan door ho jata hai..kisi ko naya maksad milta hai to kisi ka bandhan...ab tumhara baccha tumhare liye kya banega ye tumhe decide karna hai...par in any case Maa to tum ban gayi ho...the child inside you has chosen you as your mother already...you are his/her mother even now...".Dr.Sanyal said..in favor of keeping the child..not only that...she hoped Shehnaaz accepted the child willfully and if not then also she should be guilty free...because she was not wrong in both the cases.