"epitome of love" k.th x reader

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jungkook broke out of his sleep in the morning, barely being able to keep his drowsy eyes open. he sighed, feeling cold around him. the coldness that never leaves him once he is inside the house of his, not home. loneliness fills every corner of it, deprived of a loved one's warmth. he lost his parents when he was a teenage boy who didn't know anything about the world.

sometimes, he would wonder if the people who acted so nice to him, would've been the same to him if it wasn't for the overwhelming wealth he has inherited from his family. life has given him every type of comfort and luxury anyone could ask for but the comfort of finding a home in his own house.

linda and her father were the people who opened the door of a lovely home for him which made him regain faith in love again. but sometimes, just for once, he wanted to make a home of his own, to return his home happily and excited to be greeted by love.

he was beyond happy to see y/n find love, but returning back to that house of his, he couldn't  avoid the same feeling of bitterness and slowly dying inside all alone.

                                                                           -x-

y/n sat in front of jungkook who was looking rather nervous than his usual comfortable self. jungkook wanted to talk to y/n about something, but this time actually alone and in his living room. jungkook drank a bit of his black americano before clearing his throat, "y/n, there's something i want you to know about me." jungkook looked into her eyes to search any signs of discomfort. after finding none, he continued.

"i am..." he took a deep breathe,  y/n biting her lip in curiosity, "in love with you." he looked down as if ashamed of his own feelings. y/n's eyes widened and mouth left open. "j-jungkook-"

jungkook stopped her before she could say anything, "wait let me finish myself, please.". y/n lightly nodded, still in shock. "i have loved you from the day we met and never stopped. but i suppose, we aren't destined for each other. i'm not asking you to leave taehyung because i know that you two love each other more than anything in the world. i don't want this to change a thing between us. i just wanted to let out my feelings to you. i will never stop loving you," he let out a dry chuckle, "i don't think i ever can. tried multiple times. so don't feel guilty or anything cuz it's me who can't love anyone else. i wish you and taehyung the best thing in the world and i'll always be there to support you in everything you do."

y/n sat there listening to his sincere words, feeling touched by the rawness of it. she moved her hand to hold jungkook's to comfort him. jungkook looked up at her in surprise, "jungkook, thank you so much for being honest to me and your feelings, i'm proud of you. you are a great friend i've made and i promise this changes nothing. you aren't doing anything wrong by loving so don't feel bad yourself. i'm sorry i can't return those feelings the same way as you. but i do love and cherish you as the most understanding and emotionally wise person i've ever met in life, from whom i've learned a lot."

she got up to give a warm hug to him as softly as she could. her vanilla fragrance hit his nose making his brain fuzzy but he closed his eyes and hugged her back, wanting to cherish this as a memory engraved in the back of his head forever. he was taking this moment as the last one before everything started to grow distant. even if they promised not to, it will eventually become that way. he was taking it as a last moment of peace before he goes to find himself again and takes sometime away from everything as a break.

y/n was trying her best to comfort as she found all this very known to her.  this was the same feeling she felt when she found out the news about hoseok leaving. feeling as if no one would make her feel the same way as him. as if he was the only one whom she needed beside her. jungkook did nothing wrong by loving, it's not something he can control nor help himself. 

after a while, they pulled back. jungkook smiled at her and said, "i wish you a good married life. i'm so excited for the wedding that i'm going to dance until my limbs tear off that day."

"of course you will, or else i'll not let you leave the venue. you need to sing to!"

and with that they laughed together for hours like the good times.

                                                                          -x-

"let me love quietly."

-touche