waiting for miracle

forceful crush

There is nobody else in this world who can have such a boring life ? I am not exaggerating . I have never been so bored . College, friends everything seems so not interesting. I will have to take control of my life. I feel so lonely . Currently I don't have any crush . I have nobody . If I get a crush on someone , I will only be interested for a weak or so and than god knows what happens I start to feel nothing for them . Its just natural. My crush changes every week. Don't I sound pathetic? I watch all the Korean romantic movies and I am in love with them but as soon as the movie gets over I realize how boring my life is with noone to love me that way . Snap out of it you crazy girl . You are going to find someone worth of having a crush , that way you will have someone to love , to look at . Hunt begins. I didn't have to think a lot. As I wasn't expecting anything in return I could easily go for that guy I saw on mini's instagram. I regret my decision of not looking at his name. I didn't even pay attention to the show he was doing and the Channel the show comes on. Basically I just remember the guy was super hot and nothing . I will have to do some serious work on this. It was a show targeted on youth so I started browsing through all the youth channels. No help. After spending hours on YouTube I got the show he is in , I started with the episode one , well this was going to keep me busy in rest of my vacations so I don't feel so terrible about myself . And that's where it begins, to say I just found the guy hot was an understatement , he was breathtaking. What was wrong with me when I thought he wasn't my type? Look At that jawline, I would run a marathon just to see a glimpse of it. Yes I went crazy all over him. Is it forced crush or not I am still confused but it wasn't instant for sure . I still didnt want to know his name . I don't like stalking anyone over social networking sites so I won't look for his name anywhere .