waiting for miracle

hiding it all in

What happens when you see the person of your  dreams in front of you? You will be shocked ! In my case I fainted . Who knew I ll get to see him on that lonely beach? I was perfectly in my senses when I saw his car reaching my door. I was in the passenger seat!
I wish he could have just took me to his house , kidnapped me or something . But we are talking about an actor here not a gangster. This guy took me to a restaurant, splashed water on my face , made me come to my senses , made me eat a really huge meal and ya this is it . Now he is here to drop me and to do all this he hardly opened his mouth , his glare was enough . We were in front of my house when he took of his blue cap, running fingers through his hair , messing is completely. He is drop dead gorgeous. Damn and sexy . Okay my jaw was open and i should stop before he notices.

" hi "
" oh wow!so now you have decided to speak"
" people usually say hello, hi ,hey !"
" people usually don't smile with their hands wide open in middle of the sea calling death"
"What? I wasn't ..."
" shut up! You know I could have called police and handed you to them"
"For what?"
"Are you seriously asking me for what? Killing yourself is a crime"
" I wasn't killing myself"
" than what were you doing? Went to take bath in their during high tide"
"Whatever! Its none of your bloody business"
Oh shit! I didn't just talk to him like that .how can I be rude to him? I like him so so much but hold on that was 48 hours ago, he broke my heart, he is in love with someone else , so its perfectly fine to be rude , its a privilege to see him in person, my dream Cum true and whatever but I don't care now, he doesnt know me , and I hate him now, I hate everybody who makes me shed teardrops , he made me cry a river and I better drown in that instead of getting those feelings back for him .
Mentally screaming to not like him anymore I gathered courage to speak again
" listen I am sorry to be rude , but are you an idiot? It you knew it was high tide , why did you jump in their to save me , I know you are an actor and all but dude just know to differ between reel and real life, you could have been dead with me if a big wave hit us, not that I care about you, but you shouldn't have come in their lol I wasn't even trying to kill myself and even if I was its none of your business in the end."

God I said a lot. But its good . He will now throw me out of his car won't bother about me even a bit and hate me and its good. I have to stay away from him . I have to forget him and even he will in a day coz nobody likes to remember bad memories. 
He stepped out opening the passenger door for me

" come out !"
He is too cool. How can he be so cool. He should be angry.
" why aren't you saying anything?"
" what do you mean?"
" you are supposed to be angry , you should have thrown me out of your car and drove, not show chivalry."
" hmmm"
Now I was doubtful. What is he thinking? I have said more than enough to make someone furious. Is he planning to be sweet and calm and kill me afterwards like how we see in movies ? Maybe.
" you know I am a bit scared of you now"
" no no you don't have to be . Look I know. I have handled people like you before"
"What do You mean ?"
"Listen, I know something very bad might have happened to you "
(Yes its you)
"But you dont have to find your solace in sea. You understand it can be dangerous
. You could have been dead ."
(To die was better than to be killed every second trying not to jump and hug you )
"Okay now , listen carefully, you are disturbed so we will go in their and let your parents know"
(Is he out of his mind )
"No way !what are you a social worker ? And they are not at home"
" give me their number. I will tell them everything ."
" oh shut up!You have done enough . Lol instead more than enough. Thanks bye"
" Okay"
Why is he so quite? I never thought he is like this. He is extremely calm.
"But before you leave , what's your name ?"
"How many times should I tell you anything concerning me is none of your business"
Okay he looks hurt and angry. His ear has turned totally red. He rolled his lower lip in his mouth and what is that? Is that a smile. Yes a really forceful one .
"Ofcourse , it isn't "
" go now ! Are you planning to be my watchman or something?"
I have insulted him too much . I respect him a lot . I have always . I made him my inspiration. Atleast he can say something harsh to me . I will Atleast have something bad to remember about him .
"No I already have a job, so I will leave "
Looking at my face for the last time , his lower lip tucked inside his mouth, omg he looks so so kissable!shut up brain. You are supposed to hate him until you stop recognizing him. He drove off. I couldn't budge an inch from where I was standing . It was Terrible . This was never expected . You know, I always dreamt my future with him . Us smiling , laughing happily. I never even in my worst nightmare would have thought of being so rude to him. He saved me . He was so calm and good to me . And what did I do ? I am so Fucking selfish. Just to hide my feelings I was rude . Just so I could get him out of my mind I behaved like a bitch. Its sure he will never remember me. I made sure he doesn't. Tears were rolling down my cheeks , oh god I don't even realize when I start crying nowadays, I have to stop and I have to forget him that's it , its time to move on !