waiting for miracle

cold night

I have caught severe cold and to top that I got high fever. After returning home I went and stood in shower , a really cold one ! I did it for I don't know how many hours, I just cried , I was ruining it ! Ruining my dreams. The truth Hit me real hard. He thought I was stalking. He thinks so low of me on the other hand I keep on day dreaming all day about him. This is the difference I was talking about . Unlike other guys he must have never noticed I was cute , hot , beautiful, sexy whatever. He just noticed we were frequently meeting without knowing each other. Anybody at his place will think of me as a stalker. But this isn't done by me. My dreams will never come true .
I should have never done it in the first place. So yeah in the end , I have high fever. Mom and dad will be back tomorrow. I wish mom was here. My head is paining like hell, there's burning and redness in my eyes,ear, throat. Lips are too dry and face super pale. I was feeling weaker. The last meal which I had was with my cousin. 32 hours before. Ever since than I just drank water or coffee. I don't feel like eating. Having no crush was better than having a crush which was crushing me. Oh god ! I went to bed and wrapped myself in blanket. It was too cold and the rains were pouring heavily. I got up and went to take my pain killer , there wasn't even a single tablet . With such a headache I couldn't sleep. I took my umbrella and headed out to get the medicine . Rains here are scary , they get wild after few days. I couldn't even find any medical open nearby, the only one which remains open 24*7 was half a mile away and I had to cover that distance somehow. When I was half way down, my umbrella turned inside out. I tried to turn it normal but in the attempt I broke its one of the pipe. Nothing is working in my favour. The whole world is against me . I stood there facing towards sky letting rain hit my face .
" you, up there , yes I am talking to you god, I am your personal entertainment system right?I am your crying Barbie doll and you can play around with me however you want right? But no let me tell you, I am a strong girl and I won't let you make me feel worst, you get that, I will go take my medicine, walk home , wrap myself in my cozy blanket , which is very caring and warm, unlike you who is just cold and go to sleep and you won't be able to do anything except this stupid rain and stupid tricks. So go have fun"
Gritting my teeth and rubbing my palms together I increased my speed. Thank god this was open. There was a person behind the counter and a customer. Sneezing I went ahead and asked for a pack of my pain killers.
" I can't give you that without prescription"
"I have the prescription I just didn't bring it "I am sorry mam"
"Can't you see I am sick?"
There came another guy running towards us wearing a hooded coat.
" give me my packet"
The pharmacist came back with a packet and kept it on the counter. I grabbed the packet. I knew what to do.
" I will return it only if you give me my medicine"
" don't be stupid, you won't need the packet anyway" this came from the guy beside me, I turned to look at him and their he is again! Wow!I should have really not challenged god.
" I want my tablets, not your packet, ask him to give it to me"
" what do you need it for?"
"Why should I tell you that?"
"Don't you want your medicine?"
"Are you blind? Cant you see I am sick?"

"This isn't the medicine to treat sickness" came from pharmacist.
" I know . The medicine is for migraine. My head is bursting. atleast give me two tablets. That's it not more than that. "
"Return the packet"
"Give and take"
The pharmacist disappeared somewhere inside and well my crushwhodoesntcares was looking at me
"Give me the packet"
" let my Medicine come"
" do you know what is in your hand ?"
"No"
I opened my palm and saw it, durex green apple condoms. My eyes popped out of their sockets. He was smirking like an idiot. Okay . I kept the packet on counter . I got my medicines, bought a bottle of water and popped them inside my mouth. the sooner the better, now I had to be prepared to walk half a mile more to reach home. There was not even a single cab or car on road . I left the medical and walked for more than an hour . As soon as I returned home , I changed into the Tshirt I bought that day from mall and shorts and went to sleep.

"Shhh...go to sleep"
Two large hands wrapped my body, I could feel hard chest and heartbeat on my back. Somebody had hugged me from behind. He was so warm and cozy. He smelled so good. I wanted to turn and look at his face but what if it was all a dream, I don't want this dream to get over ever. Its so comfortable. Keeping my eyes closed , I turned towards him and tucked my face in his neck , my both hands enterwined finding space near his chest. Oh god it was heavenly. I won't ever open my eyes, I went back to sleep again.