Chapter Eleven: What It Felt
I imagined my first kiss to be special.
I imagined it to be the best, the thing that will change my whole life.
Sa tuwing binabasa ko sa libro o napapanood ko sa telenobela laging nakakaexcite, nakakakilig, napapasigaw ka, napapatili, hindi ka makapaniwala na e'to na, andito na yung magkatagpo at nagmamahalan!
Kiss is what seals everything.
And I wanted that. I wanted to kiss and to be kissed just like that.
I thought I would have it when I find a boyfriend.
Pero wala, feeling ko magtetrenta na 'ko at wala pa ring lalaki sa buhay ko na mamahalin ako nang husto.
May mga punto sa buhay ko na muntik na kong pumunta sa pinakamalapit na club at makipaglaplapan na lang sa isang lalaki, a fucking stranger so yes I was desperate.
But even then I didn't do anything, natakot ako na baka mabuntis ako, hindi pa naman ako handa.
Maybe one of the reasons I wanted marriage is not only for my family but also... to have a man by side, 'di ko na nga requirement na mahalin ako ng future husband ko. I just didn't want to be lonely at all.
But now, it's different.
Because I... finally had my first kiss.
A first serious kiss.
I couldn't believe it.
What the fuck, 'di ba?
It was... hah... I can't even explain it.
It was fucking amazing, that I can say.
But the only issue is... I shared a kiss from a man who's not my boyfriend but my rival and friend.
Worse, Zaiden... Avelino.
Putangina.
I have never expected for him to be the guy that steals my first kiss... let alone someone I'd share a kiss with. I fucking... we fucking kissed, me and Zaiden!
At ngayon, hanggang ngayon 'di ko pa rin maalis sa kokote ko yong nangyari sa kotse, I don't think I would ever forget about it.
I regret it for the first few seconds dahil akala ko aasarin niya 'ko pero hinde, hinawakan niya lang ang kamay ko buong byahe.
"Okay ka ba?"
"I..."
At pagdating ko sa mansion, nilabas ko... nilabas ko ang katotohanan.
"Karine?"
"Ate?"
"Kiss... I-I kissed someone."
It wasn't because of fear or anything, it was because I couldn't believe that I finally had my first kiss. Sa kanila Geneva, they probably thought it was only a kiss and I was drunk but to my twin sister, she knew that it was my first kiss.
Ewan ko ba pero pakiramdam ko lang na iba na 'ko.
Basta may pagkakaiba sa'kin.
"You're weird."
BINABASA MO ANG
Worship Me With Your Lips
RomanceOdelette Karine D. Dixon's experience in love is almost close to a zero. She heavily relies on the numerous romance novels she's read online, the rom-com movies and television series, and the fictional men she is still obsessed with to this day. Her...
