Worship Me With Your Lips

Chapter Nineteen: Can't Be

Chapter Nineteen: Can't Be

Hindi ko na pinansin yung reaksyon sa mukha ni Zaiden. I didn't even look at him. I sat still before I tried to rest again.

Whatever it is, it doesn't matter anymore. It's done. It's over.

This is right.

"Are you okay?" Pang-milyong tanong na ni Cerine sa'kin.

Huminga ako ng malalim at tiningnan siya mata sa mata. It's obvious that she's still worried about what happened and yes, she knows. She returned back home last night and one of the maids told her the truth. Sigaw siya ng sigaw sa'kin habang sinasaway ako. Telling me that she's right na pinapagod ko ang sarili ko, na dapat tinawagan ko siya, na 'wag na muna raw ako lalabas... it's just insane.

But I get it. I do. She cares about me. She's my twin sister. But this is just too much and I don't really need help anymore. I am resting. I am very much okay.

"I know what you're going to say. Shut up—"

"Shut up."

"—but I won't. You don't get to tell me anything anymore after you've just proved to me how irresponsible and stupid you've become." Ngiti niyang sabi at inofferan nanaman ako ng tea.

Apparently, it's a tea that will help to keep me healthy. Does she know that this is my third cup of tea today? I even had coffee this morning. I have a feeling na hindi ako makakatulog ngayong gabi. But it's okay because I am busy focusing on work anyway.

I'm just busy. That's all.

I'm always busy.

"Now drink it."

"Give me the paper—"

"Drink. It." Emphasize niya.

I sighed and almost rolled my eyes but I pulled myself together. Ayokong magreklamo siya o maoffend na binilog ko yong mata ko sa kanya.

She's extra sensitive too because of what happened to me yesterday. And I'm sure she's also freaking out because Felix is here. Lagi naman siyang nagfifreakout pagdating sa lalaking yun.

"I can handle myself, I promise." I told her pagkatapos kong inumin yung tsaa.

"Right. You do. You always do. Kaya ka nasaktan."

"Nasaktan? Hoy, ikaw yon, 'wag ako."

"Ha?"

Nalilito yung mukha niya sa sinabi ko. Ako raw nasaktan, okay na okay ako. I feel fucking numb.

"Kayo ni Felix." I smirk.

She sighed.

"Oh shut it, Karine."

"Oh c'mon now. What is it? Anyare? Ba't ka nandito? Ayaw mong maghangout with him?" Natatawa kong sabi because I got her where I want her to be.

"I am busy. And my sister is incredibly stupid." Diin niya sa huli.

"So you're telling me you're just here for me? Hindi dahil kinakabahan ka o nakikiliti sa tuwing nasa tabi mo siya?" Subok ko ulet at binigay sa kanya yung dokyumento.

"I am not nervous or ticklish. I told you, I am busy and I need to take care of you. Just focus on resting, baka pa-ika ika ka ne'to sa kasal ni Aster. By the way, who took you home?"