Worship Me With Your Lips

Chapter Twenty Four: Seasons By Seasons

Chapter Twenty Four: Seasons By Seasons

Akala ko noon, ako yong girlfriend na gusto ang lahat.

I want physical touch, I want all the affirmations, reassurances, and gifts. All of it. All of the things where you can show your love for someone or feel the love from someone who loves you. Hanggang sa tumanda ako, when I graduated college, when I was 22.

I had a friend that liked touching fingers, she was just touchy and was nice so I was okay with it but I was awkward at first because I wasn't used to touching like this except if it is a hug o beso beso lang.

Because of that, I realized na baka 'di ko kayanin ang PDA kapag may boypren na 'ko. Not like I will ever do any PDA besides holding hands. I want everything private, to be a secret, kasi pakiramdam ko mas romantic kapag kaming dalawa lang ang nakakaalam ng mga pinaggagagawa namin.

And no, not just sexual stuff but other stuff. Like movies we've watched or the food we eat. Or if we dance like crazy kahit na kaming dalawa lang.

Sobrang private naming dalawa ni Zaiden but I think it's mostly because of me. After my parents caught us, talagang sinigurado ko that everything is going to be private between me and him. As in walang makakaalam.

Especially when I'm sat on the counter of his cafe at night, just the two of us, and don't worry... it's already closed. Sarado ang lahat, well, except the first two buttons of his shirt.

He looked good. No, he always looks good. Nabibwisit ako minsan kasi parang ngayon na naamin ko na siya yung nagustuhan ko, yung minahal ko noon, I'm admitting that one painful fact--that I was charmed by Zaiden Avelino.

I have been. I have always been. And... I hate it.

"I'm sure you'll be the most beautiful woman in that party." Ngiti niya habang ako naman ay pinupunasan ang lip gloss at lip liner ko yata sa bibig niya.

"You think so?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Of course. Ikaw naman lagi." Hinalikan niya ang noo ko pagkatapos.

He's talking about the launch party. I don't really care much for it, but every PR can be a good PR, kilala ko rin yong brand owner, we know each other but we are not that close.

"Are you coming to the party?" Tanong ko.

"I don't really go to parties like that."

"Ikaw? Please." I rolled my eyes.

"I only went to those parties because of you. Gusto kitang maki—" tinakpan ko yong bunganga niya gamit ang kamay ko.

"Ayokong marinig yang mga pabebe mo. You like me, I get it—"

"No, I love you." He said after pulling my hand away from his mouth.

"Okay, okay—"

"You won't say it back?" He leaned closer and grabbed me by my waist again.

"I've said it enough."

"Ah, so you're going to make me beg?"

Napansin ko agad ang pag-angat ng panga niya at pagtalas ng mga mata niya. Napalunok ako sa kaba. I am way too excited whenever I have this feeling that tonight's makeout session is going to be as intense and passionate as ever.

Not to exaggerate, but it's everything.

Pababa ng pababa ang mga kamay namin sa isa't-isa, and once it becomes too much, when I am ready and thirsting for more—