The boy I must forget

A day back home

I was packing my things to go home, I have had enough of this weird thing that was going with Heeseung. After some time, I finished and jumped on the bed. I laid there, breathing, looking at the ceiling, thinking about my life. When I'm going to be in Busan again, I will look for other ways to forget him. After reflecting on my future life choices, I checked to see if I had everything and left the hotel, without forgetting to give back my key to the front desk.

I was walking while being on my phone to check the way to the airport, since I forgotten it, and bumped into someone. "I'm sorry." I said, quickly. "Y/n, what are you doing with your bag?" Ni-Ki asked. "Oh, I'm going home." I told him. He looked sad, but quickly changed his expression. "Oh, that's sad, I'll miss you." He said. He hugged me and we said our goodbyes. I walked to the airport and waited for my flight on a bench with my music in my ears. I felt tears rolling down my cheeks when Heeseung's face appeared in my head and I tried covering my face with my hands.

After a while, I had jumped in and out of the airplane and was home. I walked home, even if it took me a long time, and jumped on my big and soft bed. I was home and it felt wonderful. I didn't realize it, but I fell asleep. This time, I didn't dream of anything, I simply closed my eyes without knowing and opened them later on. I didn't understand anything when my eyes opened, I was confused. Nothing made sense, it was now dark and I was in a starfish position in my bed. I got up, changed into comfortable clothes and jumped back into my bed, under the covers this time.

When I woke up the second time, the sun was up. I got up and went into my kitchen to eat something, I was starving, I didn't eat anything for a long time. I ate the first thing that I saw and turned on the television. When I finished my food, my phone rang. I looked at my screen and saw my mother's name on it. "Hi mom." I answered. "Hello sweetie, how is it in Jeju island?" She asked me. "I'm home now." "Oh, do you want to go shopping with me than?" She asked. I agreed and she told me that she going to go get me at my apartment in an hour. After I hung up, I changed in a pair of pants and a hoodie and waited for my mother on my couch.

She picked me up and we went to her favourite mall. We looked for clothes and ate something when she was starting be hungry. When we were looking at books, she asked me about my love life and it made me think of Heeseung right away. I shook my head and told her that I was still young. "You're 20 sweetie, it's time to find a lover, no?" She told me. I smiled at her and turned my head to look at the books again. At the same time, I did it to hide my tears from my mother, if she saw them, she would know that I was thinking of him and she would scream at me.

After my mother took me home, I ran to my apartment and threw everything that I bought on my bed except my book. It looked beautiful, the cover had flowers all over it and back of the book was dark. I bought this book in particular because it is about a boy with amnesia that forgot his lover. It made me think of him, but I didn't buy it because of him, I just wanted to see the point of view of somebody who forgot his lover. I began to read it and I had to stop to eat something. The book was good, but it made me sad, I don't know if I can continue reading it.

After eating, I was too tired to do anything, so I took all the things that I threw on my bed earlier and put them on the ground beside my bed. I laid in my bed under my big blanket and put my head on my pillow. I stayed in the same position with my eyes open for some time and when I felt my eyes closing on their own, I rolled to my side and hugged a pillow that was beside me before. I let my eyes close and felt myself fall asleep.