The boy I must forget

The end of it all

I tried to focus on Jacob and his friend but the person sitting on my left wouldn't come out of my head. When Jacob's friend asked me a question I didn't hear it and he had to ask me again, louder. "How long have you had a crush on my friend! I just asked you that, can't you listen?" He told me. "I'm sorry Logan, I was thinking about something else. I've been in love with Jacob for about, hum... A year?" I said, hoping that I didn't say anything wrong. Logan nodded and I looked at Jacob for an answer, he only nodded to tell me that what I said wasn't messing anything up.

I sighed and turned my head to crack it but my eyes landed on Heeseung, he was looking at me, he looked hurt. He was looking at me and I was looking at him, we stayed like that until Jacob turned my head around with his hand and shoved his face in my face. His lips touched my lips, in front of Logan, I'm front of Heeseung. My eyes opened wide while he was kissing me. This was never part of the plan, Heeseung seeing us wasn't part of it either. I pushed Jacob away from me and jumped from my sit. I turned around and started to walk towards the exit. "She just shy." I heard Jacob say to Logan.

My eyes watered while I wiped my lips with the back of my hand. When I got out of the restaurant I sat on the ground and looked at the ground. I watched my tears land on the stone under me. The drops of water made a little puddle until someone stopped me from watching the show. I lifted my head and there he was, standing in front of me. "I see, that why you said we should stop seeing each other. You know, we could've stayed friends even if you have a boyfriend, even if it's Jacob." Heeseung told me and left. I was sitting, watching him walking away, the only thing that I could do was wiping my mouth again.

I tried my best to wipe away the kiss but it never left my lips, it didn't want to go away. I waited for awhile in front of the building, just when I got up, I saw Heeseung's friends walking towards the exit, meting that they were closer and close to me. I didn't want them to know that I had done this thing and ran away from them. I ran until I arrived in front of the beautiful clear water. It was moving in the same direction of the wind. I sat on the edge and took off my heels to dip my feet inside the cold water. I placed my hands behind me and let my weight fall on them. My eyes were looking at the sky, it was dark and all the stars were our.

They were bright, taking their places in the sky, not blocking another. I couldn't stop thinking about this boy but I had to. Every star made me think of him, they were as beautiful as he was, they were shining just like he was. Tears rolled down my cheeks and my lips were trembling, this boy grew up to be a star, someone who every girl wants but I've wanted him since he was 8 years old and I never got him. I loved him for so long but I can't have him anymore. I have to forget about the boy who makes my heart beat faster than any roller coaster has ever done. I laid on the grass, feeling it tickle my back and arms until it felt like ants were biting me.

I got up and took my shoes in my hands. I walked in the grass until it transformed in a road.I put on my shoes and walks from there with them on until I arrived at my apartment. I threw them on the ground and changed into some sweatpants and a baggy shirt. I jumped on my bed and stared at the ceiling until my eyes closed and my body drifted to sleep.

"You look beautiful."

"I love you."

"Will you marry me?"

All of these things you never said to me and I wished you did.

"Do you want to have a family with me?"

"How about we buy a house and get a dog?"

"You look so cute with your big belly."

All of the memories I wished we could've created.

"Smile for daddy."

"You are the most beautiful mama I have ever seen."

"We make the perfect family."

All of the things I wished you and I could've lived together.