"Home is where the heart is"
- that's always been true, at least until the year 2017. My life turned upside down when I didn't only lost my mom but also my best friends too.
The move to Monaco.. a fresh start or a big mistake?
Leaving my life in...
The past month I enjoyed my life to the fullest. I didn't really care what others thought of me, I just enjoyed every moment. Most of the fans shipped me with pretty much every guy I hang out. The list so far:
Charles Leclerc (as always)
Arthur Leclerc
Max Verstappen
Max Fewtrell
Pierre Gasly
Marcus Armstrong
Carlos Sainz
So according to the rumours I have a pretty adventurous love life. The reality is pretty much the opposite. I don't need no man to make me happy. I focus on my studies and enjoy every moment with my friends. But let's be honest who wouldn't like a cute romance.. Ok never mind.
The best things about the past weeks was the friendship between me and Max.. I'm so glad to have him back. It's almost like I've never left. Almost. One major point is Lando. I haven't seen him nor did I talked to him or anything but it's hard to rebuild my friendship with Max when Lando is obviously a major part of his life.
Lando does know about the friendship between me and Max. It's still difficult to avoid him especially now, where Max starts to introduces me to his friend group. Max always asks me to join them for diffrent things but I simply don't want Lando back in my life, which is the reason why I have to turn him down most of the time..
To be honest I don't know how much longer we can continue like this.. Max and I FaceTime pretty often and I know that he's at Lando's place sometimes which means Lando is listening.. It feels so weird.
I want Max and I's friendship like it used to be but I'm afraid that I have to at least accept the existing of Norris at some point to make it work.
This weekend was the Monaco Grad Prix and I was more then exited. Yesterday Pierre and I head out to the club and had a good time, he's also staying with me this Week. It is pretty nice to have him around, but I won't tell him that, can't push his ego even more. Today I spend some time with Max, Ria and Aarava just walking around the city.
Now Pierre was out with I don't know who to be honest but probably Charles for dinner. I invited Max over so we could stream. We did that from time to time, so we decided it would be nice to finish off the day with a stream.
The doorbell rung and I open the door seeing Max with two boxes of Pizza. "Omg you're the best!" I say as I hug him and take the Pizza out of his hands, smiling like a child on Christmas.
He laughs "Everything for my best friend ;)"
We directly make our way to the streaming set up. We decided to stream from his account and post a picture of us in both of our stories with the link to the stream. We didn't start the camera yet. I grabbed something to drink out of the kitchen and after that we unmute the mic and turn the camera on.
"Hi Chat!!" we both say at the same time laughing. The next hour we did nothing more then just talk to the Chat and answering some questions. Somehow we started talking about awkward childhood pictures and Max immediately shows some of me to the Chat.
"You kept them?!" I ask shocked and laughing.
He nods "Of course these are pure gold" He continues looking for some other pictures. As he finds one he laughs and shows it to me first. That was probably the worst picture I've ever seen of me.
I start laughing out loud and take his phone away from him "Ain't no way that you will show this to anyone!" He tries to get his phone back but somehow I manage to keep it. After he gives up I say "Well now let's see what you have in your phone.." He was texting with someone the whole stream and I am a veeerry noisy person. I was just about to close his Galerie as he manages to lock his phone. I laugh "OH do you have something to hide?! Well let's see if we can find out your password. Chat do you have any ideas??" I say with a mischievous smile.
He laughs "You won't find out.. So please don't lock it up alright?"
"aww.." i say after seeing his lock screen.
He smiles at me "What is it now Muppet?"
"Look at this Chat..." I show his lock screen in the camera "That's me guys!"
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He laughs and shakes his head. I smile, still looking at the lock screen "You're such a softie! I love that picture!"
My smile drops as I see he got a message from Lando
I don't care mate. That's not fair..
before I knew another one came in
It used to be me and her against the rest of the world.
I turn the screen off and try to smile in the camera again before I mute the mic. I turn to Max and hide my mouth with my hand from the stream. It might sound crazy but some of them would try and read lips as sad as it is.
"I'm sorry I didn't read it on purpose.. it just came in.." his smile drops now too. He takes his phone back and reads the messages.
He looks back up to me and inspects me carefully then he nods "Okay.."
"I really didn't wanted to pry.."
He nods again "Yeah I know no worries." he gives me a small smile.
"Did you talked about me?" I ask carefully
He tries to keep his smile up. He looks at me and nods. If I wouldn't know it any better I would've thought he was scared for my reaction. He does know very well that I don't want lando back in my life after all the shit that went down.
I nod and need a few seconds before I put my smile back on. I unmute the stream. After some time Max played CS on the stream and I just watched while I was wrapped up in my own thoughts.
'It used to be me and her against the rest of the world..'
