paper rings

"My final goodbye"

Vic's pov
20th march 2022, Bahrain

Charles just left my room after I had to beg him to leave. He didn't wanted to leave me alone after tonight but it was one of those nights were I just wanted to be alone.

I was hurt by the things Lando said. No clue what has gotten into him. But the fact that I don't recognise him anymore is hurting more then what he said, if I'm being honest.

Sometimes I wish I never had to leave Max and Lando behind..

I wish I could be in Lando's arms like I used to whenever something was wrong.

I wish Max would still be there to make me smile after a bad day.

But I did left them behind.

A few sleepless hours pass by with all these stupid thoughts running thru my head nonstop.

I finally managed to fall asleep but the next second I hear a knock on my door. I try to ignore it because which maniac would knock on my door at four in the morning? 

My patience doesn't last long because this asshole won't stop knocking on my door. 

I get up and slam the door open "WHAT?!" I scream.

The person who knocked nonstop leaned against the door because now he was about to fall right into my room. I just stepped aside looking at him getting back up on his feet.

Lando.

"Why the hell are you knocking at my door nonstop at 4am?! How do you even know where my room is?!" I say annoyed.

He enters the room and shrugs his shoulders. I shake my head and close the door before I follow him inside my room. I see him sitting on my bed. Great, I was really not in the mood for this.

"Lando what are you doing here?!" I say even more annoyed standing right in front of him.

He gets up and is now only inches apart from me. I feel his breath on my lips but now I also smell the alcohol. He was drunk. I was just about to ask him again when he tells me to shut up.

"Now I am the one speaking" he starts.

I scoff "that's what you've done the whole evening.."

He shakes his head "you have absolutely no fucking idea how I felt. You left me behind. Us! We- you just left. I had you in my fucking arms crying and the next second you're gone?!"

"But I-"

"NO!! You ripped my heart out. You have no fucking clue what you did to us!! And now what?! You just walk back in here like nothing happend?!"

"I didn't-"

"I was so miserable that we had to move away. I wasn't able to breath next to all these places we used to be at. You destroyed not only me but almost max and my friendship too!!" at this point his voice tramples of anger and tears start falling down his eyes.

I wasn't able to say anything.. I just looked at him.

"Fuck. Victoria you could've at least call me!! Text me! Anything!!! I- i almost lost everything I loved. I don't think you understand what you meant to me. I loved you. You were my fucking everything!! I would've done everything for you to be happy.. and you didn't even managed to tell me why..?"

The pain in his voice hit me so off guard that I was now crying too.

"Seeing you here hurts. I can't take it. I can't talk to you. I can't even look at you..." he wipes away his tears then he continues "I'm sorry for everything I said. I don't have the right to judge you because I don't know you. I probably never did."

I wanted to say something. Tell him how wrong he was and that it wasn't my fault. But I couldn't. I just stood there looking in his eyes which were filled with pain.

"This is my final goodbye to you Victoria. I'm done with this" he points between himself and I. "I wish you all the best but.. just stay away from me. Please." The last part was only a whisper coming from his lips and it broke my heart into a million peaces.

He looked at me for a few more seconds then he nods and leaves my room. I just stood there unable to proceed what just happened.

That night I wasn't able to sleep anymore. I cried nonstop. Every time I closed my eyes I saw Lando in front of me and the pain in his eyes.

He literally bagged me to stay away from him...

God what have I done...?

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