The Love For One (Kankuro X Reader)

Look what I did to Myself

I left that night not wanting to stay and be talked out of what I did. It has been 4 years since then. I went back into the darkness and didn't care about anything after that day. Everyone tried to get me back to what was becoming a normal for me but it felt strange trying to be happy when I truly am not. It was my first day off in months and I had time to go sit at the hill and relax. Just something I needed after hard and stressful missions. "You know, you could ask to go see him right." Kakashi voice rang out behind me. Kakashi has been the only person I can turn to after that day. he was the only person I couldn't turn out. Maybe it because he has been here since day one for me and never holds anything back. I hummed in response knowing I could but I just didn't want to. I don't want to know what has happened since then. Maybe I should go just to settle this restless heart of mine always aching for him. I black crow flew over head, "It looks to be for you Kakashi." I said as I stood. "Seems so. I'll see you tomorrow then?" He asked more then telling me. "Yeah, I'll be around." I said as we walked down the hill and went our separate ways. The rest of the day was a blur I did seem Tamari but I avoided her at all cost, I heard from Shikamaru that she was really pissed at me for leaving the way I did. I hated myself as well for that. I took a hot shower and laid down for the rest of the day. I fell asleep like I always do with him on my mind. 

I awoke to pounding on my door. "What?" I swung the door open. "Get ready, we are leaving now for a urgent mission." Kakashi said as he jumped to the roof and ran off. I shut the door and I got dressed in a short  black and red kimono dress, strapped my kunis to my bare right leg and a sword at my hip. It only took me 2 minutes to get ready. I ran to the front gates to see Naruto, Sakura and Kakashi waiting there for me. "Lets go." I said as I looked at Kakashi not bothering saying anything else. We all took off in a run. I didn't know where we were going but I knew the path we were on. I got nervous. "Where are we going?" I asked without emotions in my voice. "Suna, they were attacked last night and the kazekage has been kidnapped." Kakashi said as he jumped from tree to tree. "Why she coming then?" I asked as I looked at Sakura. I could tell Sakura was offended by what I said but I wasn't worried about that. "Kankuro has been poisoned and is in critical condition. She is there to assist with getting the poison out and get him stable." Kakashi said as he slowed down. My mine went blank and I stopped moving. The three of them dropped to the ground as the had spotted Tamari. "We need to keep going." I said as I dropped down next to them. I saw Tamari face twist with anger as I said that. "We don't have time to dily dally when one of your brothers have been kidnapped and the other one on his death bed. I understand you are angry with me but get a move on before you don't see either of them." I said and pushed her in the direction of Suna. She got the hit and took off behind me. "You could have said that nicer you know." Naruto said next to me after awhile of running. I shrugged. This is the way I am now. Back to not caring with one exception him. I slowed down, I didn't want people to know I had a weakness so I drowned everything out and he was the only thing that I couldn't get out of my heart. I came to a stop. Why does it have to be him and not me! I slammed my fist into the tree I was standing on. A hole in a perfect circle was now going through it ."Keep going she will catch up." Kakashi voice sounded as it as getting further and further from me. "You better still be alive when I get there." I said with pain lacing my voice. I took off again.

 It took us two days to get there, we got stuck in a sand storm for half a day and we made it here after that. Everyone was taken to the room he was in. He looks like he is in so much pain. I just watched from a corner of the room. Sakura was good at what she was doing. She told everyone to hold him down because its going to be painful for him. I walked slowly over to him, watching as he scrunch and fought the pain. My eyes changed to a yellow as I made my way over to him. "You get away from him." Tamari said as she pushed me away. "I can easy his pain." I said as I held his head still, I slowly opened his eyes. I looked down into his black eyes. I made him see a future that he might have wanted before I told him what I did. A loving happy family between us with days of love making and hippieness. He steadied himself and he let a small smile grow on his face as he mumble my name out, "Y/N.". It went on for about two hours till Sakura said she was done. I closed my eye and they were back to normal. I had I huge headache and was rubbing my neck till I was thrown into a wall. "How could you do that to him!" Tamari yelled at me. "Do you really think now is a good time?" I asked monotoned. She seemed shocked at my voice "Just answer me." She said in a more calm voice. "I just did." I said. Kakashi was standing there looking at me. He told me this would happen, smart ass. He grew a small smirk under his mask as he watched this go down. "You just did. That isn't a reason at all." She screamed at me. "Where was the last place you saw Kankuro before you brought him back." I asked the person the was there attending. I pulled out a map so he could point it out. "We need rest before we go after them." Kakashi said as he put his hand in between the map and the guy. "Does it look like I'm here to stand around and get yelled at for no reason?" I asked. "No reason!" Tamari yelled in the background. "You just just used your chakra for two hours with no break you need to rest and get some food in you." Kakashi said as he grew a smirk, " And she has a point you need to give her a reason on why you did what you did.". "What even happened?" Naruto asked a little clueless. He was gone before I even got back to the village after that mission so he didn't know anything. "Why she broke up with my brother on the night of hi birthday party." Tamari said as she was trying to stay calm. "Explain to me why you and Shikamaru aren't together then?" I asked as I was now face to face with her. I blush grew on her face and she stuttered out "Well its because we have no feeling for each other.". "And I'm the holy ghost. We all know that is a lie and we don't believe it. Its going to be hard to be in a relationship with someone that is not in the same village as you. So many doubts and worries that even you couldn't handle. Worried he will be with another girl when you are gone. Oh and the constant fear of being pin against each other for defending your village." I said as she looked like I just caught her in a trap. "Now since that is cleared up. Can I get that location now?" I said as I looked at Kakashi. "No, I'm keeping you here so you can help getting everything back in order." Kakashi laugh out. "Your kidding. I'll go rest I'll see you in the morning." I said as I turned away from him.