My Silenced Quirk (Deaf Bakugo, TdBk)

Chapter 9: Why TF Do You Know That

Everything was going smoothly and perfect, until one evening things came to a screeching halt.

Todoroki was trying to once again explain the quadratic formula, and I was getting frusterated. My hearing was pretty much completely gone now, no matter how close or loud Todoroki was, and I was trying to read his lips and failing without the helpful murmur of sound that had been aiding me in the past.

Todoroki also seemed to be frusterated at this point, until he took a deep breath. "Hey lets take a break from this. Theres something ive been wanting to mention for awhile now anyway."

He was talking slower now, making it easier for me to understand, and I nodded. "Whats up?"

He fidgeted with his hands, until he finally said something, and it was not something I wanted to hear, or well, see.

"Tell me I understood that incorrectly, and you did not just ask why I havent decided to learn sign language."

He sighed, before he nodded that I understood just fine.

"Why would I need that? Its fine Im fine how I am, besides why does it matter???" He paused. "I know asl."

My jaw dropped. "Why the fuck do you know asl."

He rubbed the back of his neck nervously. "You see, I told you about my family, right?" I nodded, remmebering his peice of a shit father. "Well, my sister, Fuyumi, had a friend in elementary school from the United States, who was hard of hearing. The girl taught my sister asl, and Fuyumi later taught me and Natsuo too. We would use it as a way to communicate without drawing my fathers attention. After all, he didnt really like me hanging out with them, and he has the shortest of tempers."

I nodded, now understanding, but still frowned. "So you know asl. Great." I turned away from him. I had been getting frusterated when trying to talk to him, since if he didnt put the extra effort in to slow down and talk clearer, I couldnt understand a thing.

"Look, I'll think about it." I finally responded. His face lit up, and I rolled my eyes. "Dont get your hopes up, thats not a yes." He continued to grin nonetheless. "Now look, its dark out. Im going to bed and you should too. I want to sleep on it anyway."

Todoroki nodded. "Deal. Ill see you tomorrow then, good night bakugo."

"Good night." I muttered back, watching him leave through my window. But did I really want to give in and learn asl? I didnt know, but luckily that was tomorrow me's problem.

•••

That night I had a nightmare, and it was different and somehow worse than the ones I was used to.

Todoroki and I were sitting in my room on my bed. Somehow I could hear again, he had done something and I could hear. We chatted happily and it was perfect.

"Hey bakugo, Im going to do something, tell me if you hate it." And he kissed me. I was lost in the kiss until there was a loud explosion and once again my ears were ringing. I could see todoroki, smoke around us, and felt blood drip down from my ears. He was saying something, but now it was silent and so painful.

I covered my ears and closed my eyes, and just screamed. I could see all of my class when I opened them, and the pain was gone, but everything was silent. I could see everyone crowd me, talking without sound and concern on their face.

Todoroki broke through the crowd, and the crowd dissappeared into darkness when he began to speak, but there was no sound, and I couldnt understand. I could see him trying to speak but there was no sound. It looked like he was screaming and now I was crying too.

"WHY WHY CANT I HEAR YOU? I WANT TO HEAR YOU I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOUR SAYING!" I shouted, and suddenly he seemed to be farther and farther away, until there was nothing but me and the dark fog surrounding me. There was nothing else, just silence.

(Ahhh so sad- but I had a different version of the dream that I cut out that was worse so... Anyway thats all for this one folks! Hope you enjoyed and remember to keep breathing kids!)

(This is months later Lew here, cant tell which one was worse anymore actually. Im here cuz was considering putting a section of the original in since im doing that with a later part cuz i change my mind alot. Anyway imma just put that original here feel free to skip it. Starts after covered ears paragraph.)

Until their faces turned to ones of anger, and they all mouthed, "Your deaf? You cant be a hero, you cant even sign."

Aizawa broke through the crowd, his expression one of dissapointment, and Nezu popped out of his scarf, handing me a paper saying I couldnt be a hero and was no longer enrolled at UA.

Then I was alone and it was dark. Todoroki once again appeared, and he tried to talk but I couldnt understand a thing his lips said, then he started moving his hands, signing, but yet again I still couldnt understand. He tried and tried until I broke down in tears, and then he just left. And I was alone, the weight of everyones, even todorokis, dissapointment weighing on me, before I realized maybe that was just my dissapointment by itself.

(Yeah I dont know which ones sadder...i think the first? and now im confused cuz once again this is me months later and idek which one i wanted to be the final anymore lmao. Anyway if your confused so am I but basically this is the turning point for baku thats maybe learning asl aint that bad of an idea.)