oneshot | boynextdoor

letting go // p. sungho

Love is not just about happiness and two people loving each other. It's also requiring trust, understanding and respect to one another. Love is nothing without them.

Sometimes, we could found ourselves in arguments and misunderstandings. Well—it's normal to argue because we don't have the exact same hearts or minds.

Everyone has their own thoughts and opinions and that's why love needs us to respect each other's perspectives.

But what of the argument gets the best of us? What if the trust is broken? What if we can't understand each other anymore?

Will they end up with a separation?

Things went hard for both Sungho and you. You've been together for a long time and actually married two years ago.

In the beginning, everything was very sweet and there was nothing but happiness.

You don't know when did it starts and from where do things started to fall apart. You can't find the beginning of it.

Suddenly both of you found yourselves on the edge of marriage. Fight after fight. Arguing almost every day. It leads to exhaustion but you don't want things to end this way.

Maybe there's still a little thread that can hold both of you? If there's none, you'll find it or maybe you'll be it. A reason to stay together.

But you still can't find it. With him coming home late at night from work, you feel a gap in between. It feels like the whole universe is filled in that gap and you can't reach out for him.

You began to ask yourself if all of this hurting worth it. You got super exhausted and you know there's nothing more to hold onto.

The pillar that hold both you and Sungho are waiting its time to crumble down.

You had a talk with him and it leads to a mutual agreement to go separate ways. Both of you want to stop hurting each other and thinking of divorcing.

He was unsure at first but he knows, he has put you in pain and he doesn't want it to be forever.

A week later, you brought in the divorce papers. It took a moment for him to finally sign them.

Every night, before Sungho went to sleep, he will wonder...where did all of this start to went wrong? He doesn't want to lose you and that's the truth.

One night, Sungho came home late and saw you sleeping on the couch in the living room. He carried you to your shared bedroom and he was about to leave but you won't let him go.

Your arms circled on his neck as you hug him tightly. "I'm sorry.. I—I'm sorry. Please don't go."

Sungho was caught off guard as he stares at you with teary eyes. "Don't go.." You pleaded.

"I can't.. I can't let you go.." He whispered.

"Sungho.. can we try one more time? Please Sungho."

"I don't want to hurt you anymore.. but I don't want to lose you either." He admitted sincerely, his voice cracking.

"Let's give us another chance." You said softly.

"Let's...Let's do that... we still have so many things to achieve together. We still haven't got to Busan as a married couples."

Your eyes softened because he still remembers the bucket list both of you made years ago.

"Sungho.. are you willing to start again?"

"I do.. I do." He answered confidently. "I still love you, my love."

The night changed both of you completely. You realise that the love is still there and it's worth to fight for. You don't know what will happen if you didn't pretend to sleep in the couch that day.

Yes, it was an act and you told him. He laughs and say that he's grateful you did that. Three years has passed since that night and the bond between both of you only grew stronger each day.

You will laugh whenever you were reminded by how he tore the divorce papers the next day you wake up. He took a week off and bring you on a vacation to Busan.

"Darling?" You snapped out of your memory and bringing back to the earth by him.

"Yes?"

"You've been spacing out for a while now. What's wrong?" He asks, face full with concern.

"Nothing, just reminded by the memories." You chuckles while he nods.

"Come on, we're not going to miss the flight." He said, intertwining his hand with yours with a smile on his face.

"Let's go!"