Robin Leran, a former Aston Villa player recently signed for Arsenal. She is often called the next best thing in football and has a serious passion for the sport. Since moving to Arsenal, she grew close with some girls there.
Robin received her fir...
I shouldn't have left the room like that and I know that. But I had to find out what was going on, I didn't want Jordan here and I still don't I just know Robin doesn't need to be brought into all the drama of it.
It ended badly between Jordan and me, we never confirmed we were together but there was something going on and everyone could see it. That was until she cheated on me, her excuse was that we never confirmed it to the public so was it real?
To me it was real and I was heartbroken, that was until I saw Robin that first day at Arsenal. She was like a wave of relief, a breath of air I didn't know I needed. Everything I felt and feel with Robin is real, but I know that right now she has a lot going on with the tournament and if Jordan knew about Robin, she would cause something and I had to stop that from happening.
I could have explained this all to Robin, but she would say she could handle it when I know her and I know she couldn't. Today was the first time she has ever really raised her voice at me, let alone come back at me with some of the things she did and that made what I was doing hurt more. Knowing I had angered her so much she showed that side of her.
My plan was always to put things right with her, but I think I have blown that now.
When I stormed out I went to find Sarina to see if it was really true and sadly for me it was. Sarina also told me I would be sharing with Jordan and Robin would move to Lauren's room now Fran was gone. This made the whole situation worse and I pleaded with Sarina for a long time to let Robin stay with me but Sarina said it was best for the team.
Why? I have no idea and quite frankly I do not agree.
When I couldn't find Robin on camp and nobody had seen Lauren I knew she had gone to her, I didn't care either, truthfully I just had to make out to Robin that I did so she would really want nothing to do with me.
I tried to send her another text but she had already blocked me.
Robin
Find a way because you are nothing to do with me, I'm glad you didn't want to tell anyone. Makes it a lot easier to act like I never even met you.
Leah
❗You could really do that?
Failed to send.
❗I love you Robin, my Robin
Failed to send.
Sarina had called a few of us outside to greet Jordan, I resentfully agreed and stood with everyone outside.
I looked over to the entrance of the car park and saw a car pulling in, I thought it was Jordan but then I saw Lauren clearly through the window. A car followed behind them, this was Jordan.
Although I should have been focusing on the new arrival, I couldn't take my eyes off Lauren's car, I wasn't fully sure if Robin was with her, but all things pointed to that being the case.
That was until I saw Lauren get out of the car and go to the other side, she helped Robin out who looked amazing. Her hair, the dress, but that's all I could see. Lauren was hiding her from us, from me until they got inside.
I then had to turn my attention back to the new arrival, who I hated with my whole heart.
As soon as Jordan stepped inside the building I left, heading to the pool to try and clear my head. Whether it would work, I was unsure.
I sat down by the side of the pool after grabbing a towel and pulled out my phone.
Scrolling through Instagram I saw that Lauren had posted.
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Wow.
She looked amazing, breathtaking. A tear rolled down my face as I realised what I had done.
I let a beautiful soul go, no that's not right. I forced her away, painfully and heartbreakingly away.
Regret filled my head as I continued to scroll coming across a football news page and a photo of what looked to be Robin and Lauren. Robin was crying and Lauren was comforting her, then the next photo they had seen the cameraman and Robin was trying to cover her face with Laurens's shoulder. The third and final photo is Lauren covering Robin's face with her hand and her arm around her.
I had caused that, that was my fault and an overwhelming sense of guilt took over me. I wanted to go to her and tell her everything, but I knew deep down it was too late for that. It was too late to say it was all a lie because how would she believe me? I broke her and she will never forgive me for that nor will she forget.
