Be mine ↠ s.m

Chapter 36

Isabel's pov
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"Well, that was a little weird." I say. "What?" Mahogany asks. "What Shawn did." I whisper. "You know he still likes you ,Izzy." She whispers back. I sigh. "Yeah. I know." I say under my breath. "Where do ya'll wanna go?!" Taylor yells. "Let's get some pizza!" Matt yells. "I want Taco Bell!" I shout. "Then Taco Bell it is." Cam says. Walking to Taco Bell I was thinking about Shawn. Then Nash snapped me out of my thoughts. "Hey. You gonna order.?" He asks. "What? Ohh..yeah. I will." I say. I hadn't realize I was looking at Shawn until Mahogany pulled me to sit with her. "So I see you're thinking about Shawn." She says. "Yeah i guess." I whisper. "Well I think he noticed. Or maybe he's just thinking about you." She nudges me. I turn to look at him. He keeps looking at me for a while. Then I turn away.
*skip ride to hotel*
"Hey. Can we talk?" Shawn asked. "Shawn, there's really nothing to talk about. Me and Hayes are together now, and.. It's over." I say. And walk away. I can't stand the feeling. He makes me feel guilty when he looks at me that way. He's broken. I can see it. And I've done it to him. I feel so bad. I walk to the kitchen and grab something to eat because ,why not. And I sit and think.. about everything. I have no idea what to do. "Hey guys." Mahogany says walking in. I stand up quickly. "Hey! I'm so glad you're back. We really need to talk." I say pulling her into the other room. I close the door and make sure that no one else is in here. "Okay. So I have absolutely no idea what to do about Shawn and Hayes." I say. "Okay. Calm down. So what do you think is best for each one of you? Who do you like the most? Who gives you this feeling inside that you feel like you can't have with any other boy in the world? Who do you like the most? Who do you have more in common with? Who makes you feel like you can be completely yourself when you're around them? Think about those things. Then ,when the time is right ,you'll know who you wanna be with." She says. I just sit there ,blankly. "Com'on. Let's go eat." She says. We walk back to the other room and all I can think about right now is Shawn and Hayes. "Hey guys." Matt says when we walk in. "Hey ,Matt." I say ,a little distracted I guess. He stands up and walks towards me. "Hey. Are you okay?" He asks. "What? Ohh. Yeah. I'm fine." I say ,trying to snap out of my thoughts. "No you're not. Here come talk to Matty." He says. And pulls me into the other room. As we were walking towards the door ,I notice Shawn looking at me. I look away and keep walking. "So what's wrong?" Matt asks ,sitting me down on the bed. "Well, you know how me and Hayes are together and Shawn still has feelings for me?" I say. He nods. "Well. I don't really know what to do. Like who u should be with ,yanno." I say. "Yeah. I know." He replies. "What do you think I should do?" I ask. "Hmm. Well. I think that you should go with the boy who makes you the happiest." He says. Then pulls me up and gives me a hug. "Thanks Matt. You're the best." I say hugging back. "I know." He smiles. "Okay. Now you ruined it." I say laughing. "Ya love me." He says. "Yeahh. I do." I say. "Hey guys. We're gonna watch a movie." Nash says.
Half way through the movie I fall asleep.
A few hours later I wake up in a bed. I turn over slowly to see who's on the other side. Hayes. I calm down a little. I lay on my back and stare up at the ceiling. "You okay Princess?" Hayes asks. "Yeah. I'm fine." I say. And pretend to go back to sleep.
*next day*
I wake up to someone singing. Shawn.
"I thought that I've been hurt before. But no one's ever left me quiet this sore. Your words cut deeper than a knife. Now I need someone to breathe me back to life. Got a feeling that I'm going under, but I know that I'll make it out alive. If I quit calling you my lover. And move on. You watched me bleed until I can't breathe. I'm shaking. Falling onto my knees. And now that I'm without your kisses, I'll be needing stitches. Tripping over myself. I'm aching. Begging you to come help. And now that I'm without you kisses ,I'll be needing stitches. Just like a moth drawn to a flame. Ohh you lured me in ,I couldn't sense the pain. Your bitter heart cold to the touch. Now I'm gonna reap what I saw. I'm left seeing red on my own. Got a feeling that I'm going under. But I know that I'll make it out alive if I quit call you my lover and move on. You watched bleed until I can't breathe. I'm shaking. Falling into my knees. And now that I'm without your kisses ,I'll be needing stitches. Tripping over myself. I'm aching. Begging you to come help. And now that I'm without your kisses ,I'll be needing stitches. Needle and the thread gotta get you out of my head. Needle and the thread gonna wind up dead. (3-4times) you watched me bleed until I can't breathe. I'm shaking. Falling into my knees. And now that I'm without your kisses, I'll be needing stitches. Tripping over myself. I'm aching. Begging you to come help. And now that I'm without your kisses I'll be needing stitches."
"Hey bro. Soundin good." Matt says slapping his shoulder. "Thanks." Shawn sighs. "So is the song for Isabel?" Matt asks. "Yeah. But shh. She's still sleeping." Shawn whispers. I cough a little to pretend like I'm just waking up. I roll over and grab my phone. I check my feed ,then pull the covers off and get out of bed. "Ohh. Shawn. Matt. Hey. Do you know where Cam Nash or Hayes is?" I say/ask. "I think they went to get breakfast." Matt says. "Okay." I say ,then walk to the bathroom to change and all that other stuff.

A/N: hey guys! sorry I haven't updated in a while. I was kinda feeling out of it😪I might stop making stories because I kinda don't have time but let me know what you think I should do. thanks for all the reads. ly💕