Your smile sickens me
Your shining eyes enrage me
And yet I know my anger is irrational
Your voice irritates me
Your glow provokes me
Still I know my anger is irrational
Your success hurts me
Your friendship weakens me
This anger is incredibly irrational
Your presence scares me
Your kindness conflicts me
Why is it so irrational?
What is it that you're doing to me?
Making me love you,
Making me hate you,
Making me hate myself.
Why can't I just let you go?
Let your achievements go?
And smile?
When you're near me, I can’t have it,
The irrational anger.
But when you're gone,
you linger in my mind,
And I despise you.
Everything I feel is like venom
Coursing through my veins
And shoots me with unbearable pain.
But I bear it.
Then you're there and everything's ok.
No more pain
No more negativity
Just peace.
And yet my anger still appears
This irrational anger of mine
And yet, I can’t bear to let you go
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A Mental Trip
PoetryThe poems of a depressed nonbinary POC throughout high school, into college, and through first loves and toxic relationships. Hopefully, this shows people that they are not alone in their pain and that there can be something better on the other si...
