No matter how many days or years go by, life still just feels so wrong without you. I strive to have you live on through me, but sometimes that gets difficult when I get into situations that I have no idea how you'd handle. Ugh, I miss asking you for advice so much. Somehow you always knew what to do or say to make everything okay again. This just isn't how things were supposed to turn out. We were supposed to figure this whole life thing out together. There are so many things that I wish I could tell you about and update you on. You would be so proud of things I've managed to accomplish, but I wish you were here to help me through the things I'm still working on. I have dreams of opening up my own lil shop, but it would be so much cooler to do it with you. I'm pretty proud of how my art has evolved, but it's bittersweet because you were always such a mentor, I constantly find myself wondering what amazing pieces you would have come up with. You still inspire me daily, in so many ways. I'd do anything to bring you back. Sometimes I swear that I can physically feel the hole in my heart where you're supposed to be. I miss you more than you would have ever dreamed of being possible. I was so proud to be your sister, and it forever shatters my heart that I'm technically an only child. It's been eight years and I still try to convince myself that you're just in Belize or something. That you escaped from this crappy government like you always dreamed of. Life will never ever be the same without you. The sun doesn't shine as bright, every color seems faded, the joy I find is dull without you here to share it with. I miss you more than words could ever express.
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Letters to You
RandomAfter losing my only brother on January 31, 2016, I've decided to write letters to him as if to update him on my life. This is mostly a way for me to let out all of the feelings that I keep inside.
