God, seeing pictures of you just breaks my heart in ways I didn't think was possible. I'll never understand death, I'll never understand why your life ended so soon. There are so many plans we had that will never happen. You know that I've always wanted to be an aunt and every time someone my age mentions their niece or nephew it just tears me up. I still wish you could be my best man in my future wedding. I swear we take so many things for granted. Lord knows I sure did when you were here, and I still do. I have so many things to be thankful for but I still get so focused on my pain from losing you or even stupid boys that don't deserve it. If there's anything I've learned from losing you, it's that I should be thankful for the people I have in my life. I wouldn't be who I am now without them. You always taught me to be strong, so it's kind of ironic that losing you is what took my strength away. But, I'm so grateful that I have such good friends that pulled me out of that pit, and especially Megan. You would be surprised by the level of how close we've gotten since you died. Honestly, I could never thank her enough for everything, she's the main person that helped me through it all. And surprisingly Mrs. Macias from CA really helped me last year, she was so sweet and understanding with everything. There are so many new people in my life that I wish you could meet. I always think that maybe if you had met some new people, you wouldn't be where you are but who knows. Either way, nothing can change it. I still miss you more than I thought was possible.
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Letters to You
RandomAfter losing my only brother on January 31, 2016, I've decided to write letters to him as if to update him on my life. This is mostly a way for me to let out all of the feelings that I keep inside.
