Letters to You

August 23, 2017

I guess I talk about you a lot. I was talking about some of our old memories and a friend of a friend asked why we don't do those things anymore and I'd be lying if I said that a part of me didn't wither away when I had to explain that you aren't here to make memories with anymore. It's honestly weird how I miss you at the most random times. It's not that I forget about you or anything, but there are times that I just don't feel as sad and then sometimes it just hits me that you're gone. The realization is one of the hardest feelings. I really wish you were still here. On a brighter note, you should have seen the eclipse. Dad was so excited about it he drove us all the way to North Carolina to go on a long hike just to see it. Not gonna lie, it was pretty cool though. I ran into some old friends and made some new ones while I waited for Mom and Dad back at the truck. You would have had fun, it was really cute to see Dad so excited. You could tell he was sad you weren't there though. The day before the eclipse we were watching some show about people trying to survive in the woods and this one guy went with his dad, and when the show was over and they had their interviews, the dad said that he was glad he was able to have that experience with his son. When I looked at Dad he was crying :/ He doesn't talk about it very much but I know it makes him really sad when he thinks about you. Basically everybody knows I'm an emotional wreck so there's no hiding it lol. I really wish there was something I could have done to save you because there are so many times I wish you were still here. I love you so much, always.