recovery || chaesoo

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dear diary,

... it's... it's over... me and kim jennie...

i last wrote on thursday and it's now sunday... and... a lot happened... and... jennie was... she... she didn't love me... she's left me...

i'm crying while writing this...

back on friday, jennie as usual got on a dress, and went out. i went up to our room to find my diary, and I saw her phone just sitting on her bed. she must've forgotten it.

i didn't want to, but i got tempted. i thought to myself, and decided this would help me figure out whether jennie is actually going to see her family.

i went downstairs, and took a plastic sticker. i then went back up to our room, took one of jennie's perfumes, and got her fingerprints. i then used those to get into her phone.

i sat on my bed once i was in, and an app on her home screen almost made me have a heart attack...

tinder.

what? why would jennie have tinder?

i didn't open that. i instead went to her text messages, and the person she had last texted was...

'lisa ♥︎'

"who in the seven shades of hell is lisa?" i said to myself.

i tapped on lisa's contact to view her and jennie's last conversation.

jennie: Packing up now, lalice. can't wait to see you. ;)

lisa: i can't wait either, jendukie! :) have you told jisoo yet?

jennie: she's been getting suspicious, but she won't find out.

lisa: you sure? we can't do this forever, i want you to move back to thailand with me.

jennie: i know, and i will. i love you, lisa. i don't love jisoo anymore, i'm over her. she's not the one for me, you are. i'll tell her, i promise.

lisa: okay. i trust you, jen ♥︎ see you!

jennie: be there soon. :3

i almost had a stroke.

jennie was cheating on me.

i scrolled up. oh my god, jennie had been talking to and seeing lisa for months! i started to cry, right then and there.

a few hours later, at 12:45, jennie returned home, to see me in the living room, holding her phone with all the text messages. she dropped her handbag on the floor, literally.

her face turned from shocked to angry and serious. she started to walk quickly up the stairs. i followed her.

"11 years, kim jennie, 11 damn years!" I yelled.

we arrived into our bedroom. jennie went into her wardrobe, grabbed her suitcase, and began to pack up.

"what are you doing?" i asked.

she turned to me. "packing, kim jisoo, are you stupid!? i'm moving to thailand with lisa! it's time we finally ended this! it's not working!" she slammed her suitcase shut and and grabbed another one. "i'm sorry but i fell out of love with you ages ago! you're not it for me! you'll find someone else, i did! lisa is the one for me, okay!?"

i just watched her pack until she shut her second suitcase, grabbed her handbag and snatched her phone out of my hand as she walked past me, and then went downstairs to the front door.

"Where are you going, jennie?"

"back to lisa's! i'm moving to thailand with her, to live the life i always wanted! the one that you haven't given me, and don't come looking for me! goodbye, kim jisoo, have a good life!"

she went through the front door and slammed it behind her. i fell onto my knees, and cried...

i was right, jennie was cheating on me... she didn't love me...

i gotta tell jin, i still haven't...

- jisoo