Freedom. Felix

Beginning

Disclaimers: this story will include thoughts and actions of hurting themselves and of trying to kill themselves, it will also include mentions of depression anxiety and ptsd. There will also be mature parts I will put a disclaimer before. Anyway this is my first book so it might be a little crazy but enjoy.    

*disclaimer ahead a scene with some who tried to kill themselves so warning here*

She sat there looking at her moms body waiting for the paramedics to arrive. This wasn't the first time her mom has done this. She didn't get it why would she do it why would she, she has everything a loving husband and 2 kids why? Sirens are heard outside so she picks her mom up and takes her outside ready to be done with this. "Kai sweetheart where's your brother?" Her dad asked. "No idea he didn't come home last night I'll try texting him, mom did it again i think she might need to go the hospital" she said to her dad on the phone explaining everything that happened. " ok I'll be home in 2 days do you think you can make it or do you need me to come back early?" Her dad said worried about what happened. Sure his wife does this a lot but recently she has been hearing voices and has been really quiet and stressed about things, he worried that something might be happening and not for the good. "No dad I'll be fine just focus on work" she said bringing her dad out of his thoughts. "Ok make sure you eat and make something for your brother I'll tell him to come home" her dad said trying to sound calm. "Ok ok dad I understand well I'll go bye love you" she said not wanting to talk anymore. "Ok kiddo love you too" after he said that she hung up going back into the house. She sighs "I need to clean it's a mess here ugh" she started to clean putting music on and dancing while cleaning.

After a couple hours she had cleaned the whole house satisfied she finally went into her room to relax before she had to cook. She sat at her desk wanting to do something but couldn't think. She then pulled out her notebook. She likes to write about things and sometimes write songs. "Maybe I'll try to write a song?" Few hours of trying she has given up and ended up drawing who is she drawing, she doesn't know. "Shit! I forgot to cook, jongho's probably with his friends anyway" she sighs going down stairs to see what she has to cook. Her brother always hangs out with his friends and her dads always is on a work related trip. So it's always her mom and her at the house, she won't complain because it's nice sometimes but other times it sucks because she has no one to talk to about her problems. Cooking something easy she starts to eat but gets a call. "Hello" she says answering the phone. "Hey Kai how's it going I know moms actions can take a toll on you?" She sighed. "I'm ok just worried and where are you? Are you coming home jongho?" She hears him sigh. "I don't know if I can come home, I have some business to do." He said worried "I'll be fine bye" she said hanging up. She got up tired of everything that just happens. She decided she's gonna go to the han river. "It's not far from the house and I need a breather" she said trying to convince herself. Putting on her shoes and a jacket walking out of her house.

Walking to the river she starts to think about her past. She used to be loved and have a lot of friends she used to be free from all her worries, her dad helped her mom and her brother used to actually be home. She hated how it was. After she graduated everything went downhill. Her mom and her dad go into a big fight and that caused her dad to go for a drive and her mom to attempt to kill herself. She sighed looking at the river. "I wish it would all end" she said looking at the sky looking at the stars crying. She remembered her best friend, he would always say her freckles reminded him of the stars. She misses Seungmin, she misses all of her friends. Happy that they could do their dream and finally make music. She put her earbuds in listing to youtiful. She hated that she didn't like her life she hated that she was trapped in this place she had to take care of her mother while her brother would be with his friends and her dads never home. She started to walk home, it then started to rain. Wanting to give up she just ran like she was being chased.
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A/N wow I don't know it was good or bad heh 😅 hopefully good 😌