she stared at the test while she waited for the results. she was on birth control but she wanted to be safe. 1 line appeared then another faded line. she stared at it, trying to process it. she was pregnant and she had no idea how to tell anyone. she thinks isaiah wouldn't want to keep it so she's playing it safe for now. isaiah knocking on the door asking if she's okay.
isaiah walks in the bathroom to find his girlfriend sitting on the toilet staring into space with the pregnancy tests on the counter. he looks at them, heart racing. he was going to be a dad, or maybe he wasn't. he was okay with whatever she decided.
isaiah
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i stared at the test, then at sanyiah, then back at the test. she was pregnant. like really. she looked like she wanted to cry.. i felt so bad for her
ny.
i shook her & she just looked at me while playing with her fingers
hmm?
what's this baby?
i.. um i took a test.. because i hadn't been feeling too good and i just wanted to be sure..
okay, are you okay?
yes.. i hope you're not mad at me
mad? why would i be mad at you mama?
because i wanna keep it...
you wanna keep it?
sanyiah..
i knew you'd say no..
i'm not saying no sanyiah, we just don't have time for a kid, i got basketball and work. you got work too & you starting to pursue basketball more as well. we don't have time to have a baby.
isaiah.. hear me out please..
sanyiah, we do not have time for a child. if you want to keep it, i'm fine with that and if you don't, i'm fine with that as well but we need to have our full attention on this kid. you understand?
yes isaiah i understand..
cmon ny, don't do this baby. i would love to have a baby with you.
so then why cant we keep it isaiah. why?
i didn't say we cant.
leave me alone isaiah
sanyiah. come on.
get out isaiah, go home.
sanyi-
GET OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE ISAIAH
okay.. i love you, ima see you later.
i just grabbed my stuff and left. to give her some space. i mean.. pregnancy?? baby?? i'm not ready for that. maybe after high school but right now? i got basketball, so does she. i cant have a kid right now , that's such a big responsibility.. it makes my head hurt to think about it. i heard her crying as i walked out the door. it broke my heart to hear her cry. i just wanted her to be okay..
sanyiah
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after isaiah left, i cried. he was right. i couldn't keep the baby. so i called my mom..
* phone ringing *
madukess💜
hello?
me
hi mommy..
madukess💜
hey ny baby, are you alright?
me
yes um can you take me somewhere when you get home..
madukess💜
of course my love, where?
me
the clinic..
isaiah kind of didn't pull out and i'm kind of pregnant..
madukess💜
oh boy... okay.. sure
i get off in an hour, be ready.
me
okay thank you mommy, i love you
madukess💜
i love you more sweetie
*phone hangs up*
i decided to text saiah.. just to give him closure.
me
hi baby..
my saiah💕🥹
hi beautiful, how are you? you okay?
me
yes i'm sorry about earlier..
i just.. idk
my saiah💕🥹
nothing i ain't used to, it's okay baby😂
me
mommy's taking me to the clinic, u were right
my saiah💕🥹
aww i'm sorry baby. i know it upset u.
me
it did a little but it's okay. maybe when we graduate we can have one
my saiah💕🥹
maybe so. wyd tho?
me
getting ready
my saiah💕🥹
i got some weed, can i come over?
me
if u want but i don't wanna smoke
my saiah 💕🥹
okay, i'm omw
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when the boy arrived at her house, he gave her a big hug. it was a long one too. after they broke apart from the hug, he looked down at the 5'4 girl. she stood on her tippy toes to give him a kiss. he pecked the girls lips as walked in. they just stared at each other. isaiah loved eye contact while sanyiah was always the first one to break it. it made him giggle a little because she was cute to him when she was nervous. he licked his lips as he laughed. hearing one of their phones buzz. it was sanyiah's.
madukess💜
hey baby i'm outside, you ready?
she let the boy know her mom was outside and he went outside with her, letting her know he'll be back when she gets home. he waved at her mom and got in his car, heading home.
once he arrived home, he went straight to his room. sighing as he put his head back on his headboard. he thought about how much different life would be if he had a kid. would he be able to finish high school? would he have to quit basketball? what would his parents think? basketball was his first love. he couldn't imagine quitting.
all these thoughts running through his mind at once started giving him a migraine. he decided to take some advil to help his headache and just laid down, closing his eyes. he heard amira come into his room like she normally did and he asked the girl if she was alright, staring at her with his hand on his temples lightly massaging it. she nodded and climbed in his bed with her little blanket. she did this a lot when she wanted to take a nap with him and he always let her. she snuggled up next to him and fell asleep with her thumb in her mouth.
