Fortuitously

Chapter 32

Light shines over my eyelids and forces me awake. I keep my eyes closed, and roll over to my side, turning away from the window. 

I quickly realize where I am and my body shoots up. I look around the room, taking in my surroundings. Remus is laying bare beside me, hardly covered in the sheet, which I pull up to cover my chest. 

"Shit! Shit, shit, shit, shit." I whisper, looking around for my clothes. 

What the fuck was I doing last night??

I scold myself. My clothes lay assorted on the ground. I climb off the bed and pick them up, putting them on piece by piece as I collect them. 

Memories of my night flood my mind. I slap my hand over my forehead. Fuck. 

Remus groans from the bed, stirring in his sleep. I tiptoe out of the room, attempting to sneak away. As I close the door to the bedroom I hear him sit up on the mattress. 

Sorry, Remus. 

I rush out the front door, not looking back. 

"You fucking idiot, y/n. What the fuck were you thinking?" I'm whispering to myself as my footsteps speed up. 

Fuck, my head hurts.

I squint my eyes, barely able to see. 

As I near the front doors of Hogwarts, I hear Remus' footsteps jogging from behind me. "Y/n!" He shouts. I turn around and see him, running over towards me. I sigh, and wait, not wanting him to strain his body further. 

"Y/n, I was worried about where you had gone..." He's breathless, looking around to see if there are any students around. He hunches over, supporting himself on his knees as he reaches me. 

"Remus..." 

"Let me explain..." 

"I don't think I need you to," I chuckle awkwardly. 

"No— I know how odd that must've felt for you—" 

"It's not the first time I've slept with a Professor, Remus." I speak quietly, continuing my walk into the castle. I look around, seeing no one there either. 

"Well, I know it's just that—" 

"Look. I think after everything that happened with Snape... this—" I pause and turn to face him, motioning to the two of us "It just wouldn't be smart, Rem. And not just that, but I really, really like you." I reach my hand up to his face. 

"I like you too, y/n." He whispers, his eyes appearing almost sad. 

"I know, love." I lean forward and kiss his lips softly. "I don't want to lose you. You're a good friend, Rem. I love, loving you, and I love that you love me." I wrap my arms around his neck. 

His arms loop around my waist. "I don't want to lose you either... But I'm not Severus. I'm not here to play games with you, Y/n. I know what he's done." He pulls out of our embrace and cups my face with his hands. "You... Y/n, you deserve the moon.. and the stars.. and anything and everything between. I know you still think about him, darling. Let me help you to forget..." 

His lips meet my forehead. He kisses me again, this time on my cheek. And again, this time closer to my mouth. Again, this time on the corner of my lips. Until finally, his mouth is on mine, and my tears are falling, and I'm silent, trying not to show my hurt. But I'm hurting. Hurting because he is everything I needed Severus to be. Hurting because I want so bad to be in love with this man but my thoughts linger on someone who can't be what I need. 

"I'm gonna hurt you, Remus..." I whisper against his mouth. 

"I know what I'm getting myself into." 

Another very short update. 

Before you guys ask, yes this is still a Snape story. Y/n's MAIN love interest will always be Severus. We call it 'main' because why can't my girl fuck around in the process of finding her love?🤭

Don't stress guys, everything will work out in the end. 

Or will it?🤨🤨🤭