*RACHELS POV*
No. No. No. This isn't right. I let go of Cameron and I's hug immediately. He looked almost confused. I realized I had tears coming down my face.. I wiped them away immediately. I'm glad my neighbor is watching Evelyn..
"What's wrong?" Cameron asks.
"This doesn't seem right." I say.
"What doesn't seem right!?" Cameron asks, confused.
"Us! Cameron, I can't get attached!" I say, wiping some tears away with my hands.
Cameron now looks like he is about to cry.
"It's like once you been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break your heart." I say, whispering.
"I won't let that happen ever again, Rachel.." Cameron says.
"How can you be so sure?" I say, with a crack in my voice.
"Because I'm never gonna lose you again." Cameron says.
"But that's the thing, you already lost me." I say.
"But I'm gonna win you back." He says, confidently.
"Ok." I say, blankly.
"What are you afraid of?" Cameron says, while a tear dropped down his cheek.
"The fear of falling in love all over again, after you've been hurt." I say, while running away.
I'm glad I walked here. Cameron tried chasing me, but I just ran faster. He called my name, I just ignored.
I find my place where my feet land. I drop down in the grass while I cry. After I'm done crying, I wipe my tears. He comforts me. That's why I'm here.
"Hey buddy." I say. "It's been awhile. I'm sorry for that. I've just been stressing a lot lately. You know, with Cameron. But, I'm staying strong for you."
I laugh, while wiping my tears as I continue to speak.
"I'm gonna have to bring Evelyn here.. She would like to meet you. I would tell her stories about us.. You know when we went to go carts and you almost tipped over *laughs*... I wish you could comfort me like you used to.. I feel like I'm drowning sometimes.. and I don't have a life jacket to save me. Nothing feels right anymore. I know, you probably want me to be happy with Cameron.. But I can't find myself to love again. I'm scared. Scared of getting hurt."
I wipe more tears streaming down. I soon continue.
"I remember when life was simple. Everybody was happy and everybody got along. It doesn't feel the same anymore. I need you. Please, be my guider.. I need help. I think about you a lot. I think about the future, if you were in it. You would always made people laugh and bring smiles to their faces on the rough days. I wish I could be as strong as you. I'm holding on with a thin rope. But I'm not giving up just yet. I don't know, I just feel like there is hope for me in this mad world."
"It's crazy how time flies. I remember our bond. Thank you for standing by me. Thank you for helping me. Just thank you for everything. I love you. I should probably go now." I say, getting up and wiping my knees because of the grass.
I walk away. I then turn around and look at the shiny tomb stone.
"Goodbye, Espinosa. See you soon." I say, whispering and walking away. Not looking back.
••• | Friday | •••
"Mommy! Don't be late! I want you to meet Xavier!" Evelyn says, as she steps onto the bus.
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Never Ends ; Sequel to Never Ending Love
Fanfiction"There is so much history the way they look at each other.. In the way they say each other's name. When they are together, there is a current that runs between them; like an electric charge on the verge of erupting into a perfect storm."
