It hurts...
It hurts so much...
Ah... Where and how did I get here...
I feel like I am drowning deeper as my bones, my spirit, my pulse slowly turn into fragments...
Every little piece shines in this dark ocean, I smile as soon as I see my dear husband in his studio, surrounded by papers yet keeping the lovely and gentle smile he always has...
"Fen..." his calm tone calling my name as I was laying on Mimi, our snow lion; a soft, warm and maybe too big cat. As he pronounced my name I opened my eyes and met his glance; a golden sea where you could get lost and hope not to find anymore a way out "... what are you thinking about?" he asked while leaning the quill on the desk and bend his head on a side, moving a bit his long white hair.. He talked but his words couldn't reach me, his figure started to shatter slowly in front of my shocked eyes...
Why do I hear him like he's so far away... why is everything disappearing in front of my sight...
Am I... dying?
I don't remember...
How... How did I end up like this?
My heart skipped a beat, as soon as a fragment of my soul started to shine showing me another frame of my happy memories...
"Mother!"
I can't see...
"Mother look!"
"I wouldn't expect anything less from you, Yanqing"
"Yan...qing" I whisper while from my mouth I see blood coming out...
I smile, the pain gets unbearable but I can't do anything about it
Yes... I am dying...
I just wish I had more time...
"My dear wife"
"My beloved husband"
"I am sorry you lost me"
I could hear his echo in mine...
Why can't I remember...
Everything finally shuts and goes black... I smile in pain. I knew I couldn't do anything to come back to my son, and I couldn't beg the Aeon to give me more time....
If this was my destiny, then I am willing to drop my last tear and let my family go for a better future knowing I have given my life to protect...
"Fen..."
"Fen..."
Let me die in peace please...
"Fen"
"Fen"
"CHECK ON HER, NOW!"
A strong grip on my left arm pulled me out of... a river?
I started coughing to throw all the water I felt flowing inside me for more than enough to kill a human. Yet why was I alive? It doesn't make any sense...
My hands automatically did lay on my stomach were I felt the last hit... the one that put my life to end, there was nothing...
What the hell did just happen?
Why can't I remember what happened the day I died, but instead I remember everything else?
"Are you okay? What were you doing underwater?"
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The General's Ice Fairy - Jing Yuan
FanficThe story is placed in a world where Jing Yuan, a general of the Alliance, known for his calm, wise attitude on duty, during the Unforgivable Fire lost his wife, leaving him and their son Yanqing alone. Theorically yes, but actually no. I am Fen Yu...
