Dear Ashton,
It's been three days since you jumped; three days since you kissed me on that ledge; three days since my heart was beating so fast i thought I would die with you... But the thing is, you didn't die. You hit the ground, you broke your arm, you got a severe concussion, possibly brain damage. The doctors told your mom you would live. They told her that you would be fine after a month or so of recovery and extensive therapy, along with whatever psych meds they decide to give you. But I know that isn't true. I know you... I know how your mind works. This is your third suicide attempt within a year. I know you'll try again. I know that at some point, you'll likely succeed, and I'll have to live without you forever. You screwed up... bad. You hit me, you made me afraid of you, and then you lied to me about all of it so I wouldn't leave you. But I did. I don't have another choice, and I know you understand. I do love you, and it's going to hurt so bad when you're gone. So i'm sorry, but I have no option but to distance myself from you... I do love you, but it will hurt less if I get away from you now before I get myself attached now...And perhaps it will hurt less for you as well. i know how it feels to be in love with someone and still have to stay in a platonic relationship with them. So although some may see this as selfishness, I see it as being better for the both of us. Maybe you never will succeed in killing yourself. Maybe you'll live into your twenties where we can reunite and maybe even rekindle the love that was once between us. Your mother hates me now though, so likely I wouldn't be able to see you even if i wished to. She's called me so many times and i have about ten texts from her asking what I did to you... I feel so guilty for all of this so i'm apologizing for everything I've done to you and for all the pain I'm about to cause by leaving your life. I'm so sorry and I hope you may forgive me despite the fact that I will never be able to forgive myself. I'm so sorry Ashton... More than likely you will never actually receive this letter. I'm not strong enough... I guess this is more to help me than you.... I love you Ashton, goodbye for now.
Love Amethyst
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Its not lot but its all I have time for right now. I'm planning another story and i want to make the cover and description and stuff before I have to go to bed tonight so thats all for now
MWAH! <3
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