Twisted WONDERLAND x Male Reader

Chapter 18: For a reason you wouldnt understand

What just happened... why did that just happen.. no.. no.. no!

I stared at my hands, full of a sticky and slimey red liquid. No.. no.. not again. Please please please please please please.. Please! Stop.. stop! I don't want to hurt anyone anymore!

My head raced as a pounding struck in my chest. Stop.. stop..

Around me was burning buildings, fire lighting the entire area. No.. stop.. it can't be..

My breaths hitched and began sharp and shallow. I couldn't breathe properly as I adjusted my standing. I stumbled up, my leg nearly snapped in half. Tears, fresh and old, stained my face as my hair was messy. My hair was long and a dark, dull purple, but now it was illuminated with orange and yellow. You could see red taming at the end peices of my hair, as it did my hands and other parts. My cheek was dimmed red, speckles in my eyebrow, and on my lip. I could feel it.. I shouldn't feel it.. my arm was nearly tearing away from my DIY flesh.. and my other arm was supporting it.

My pain was unbearable, horrible as it stabbed into my skin like betrayal. It peirced me hard, stuffing salt into a wound. I can't recall what happened at this very moment, mostly because of the headache I gained at all of this. It was hard to take in when your arm if falling off, and your knee is ready to snap away at any moment. Supporting myself up was hard, horrible as the agony chipped into me.

I wasn't supposed to feel this way. Something is wrong.. very wrong. Why does my chest have a beating? What is it? It's doesn't have a heart, but it has the sensation? And why was the pain there? Wasn't I immortal and incapable of human emotions? No, I'm supposed to be that way. But the beating isn't possible, it shouldn't be. The thoughts running through my head made the ache worsen and soon I groaned. I lifted my head to the sight.

'Khaenri'ah..' Why was I here? I'm not supposed to be here! I'm not supposed to be here! I'm not supposed to be here! I'm not! I'm not. I'm not. I'm not.. I'm not..

Stop! Get me out of here! STOP STOP STOP! I screamed mentality. My head and body swung everywhere to look for somewhere else to go. That's when I noticed her.

The beautiful, kind, smart, and life changing woman I loved. I loved her with every puppet object with me. She was drop dead gorgeous when you saw her, and she made sure to make you her friend once she met you. The way she treated someone, it was like they were family.. unlike others we were family, technically. She was my aunt, the one who, other than kunikuzushi, showed me true love. I wasn't supposed to be in khaenri'ah, but I followed my mother here. I loved my mother from the bottom of my heart, and I don't have a heart.

But, I knew deep inside, really deep inside, I did love her. She was my creator, after all, but I don't see her as a mother mother.

My breathing became truly unsteady as I stumbled forward, beginning to run no matter the pain I was in. "MAKOTO!" I screamed, sliding to her body. "Y/n?" Ei asked, her voice cracking with tears. "Moma.." I said quietly as I looked at her. That was the only time I had called her anything related to a mother. She sobbed hard into Makoto, who only reached for our cheeks. "Ah, my loves.. my final wish has now come true, my only regret is that I cannot walk this journey with you. Y/n, I love you baby. This time, it really is goodbye, Y/n, Ei."

You could hear the pain striking in her voice, but a calm kindness too. My chest lifted up and down uncontrollably. "Goodbye, Makoto." Me and Ei said in sync, unable to truly say what we wanted. We both knew it was happening, it was real. We just didn't want it to be. Think about it the person who has treated you right all your life, minus your big brother, was now gone. It left you in vain and pain, unable to understand completely what was left. All I want to do was cry, cry into my own arms out of self pity, but I couldn't. I couldn't find the thought to. It didn't come naturally, unlike Ei. She wept into Makoto's body before it turned to ash.