Han-
Sometimes things don't go, after all,
from bad to worse. Some years, muscadel
faces down frost; green thrives; the crops don't fail.
Sometimes a man aims high, and all goes well.
A people sometimes will step back from war, in America here it can't be done
an honest man is your boss for now they will , decide they care
enough, that they can't leave some stranger poor.
Some men become what they were born for.
Sometimes our best intentions do not go
amiss; sometimes we do as we meant to.
The sun will sometimes melt a field of sorrow
that seemed hard frozen
I still remember everything that I've had to go through since I arrived here in Korea it's been emotional roller coaster and I don't know what to do and I don't know what to say.
I feel sad and I feel let down at times because well if you ask me, I think that we should all be mindful of other peoples feelings but then again, no one can ever really be mindful by people feelings, because well it just does not exist, unfortunately Credibly sad then again who cares of everything in life then again if you ask someone that they hurt your feelings because someone why did you do that they get upset and then they want to run away from you and act like you're the main problem then again people always act like they're victims to crimes they committed and that is not OK. I feel like I think the worst people in life could be your friends. The first set a friend that you have because not everybody has a true friend that will stick with them to the very very end, and I don't think that it works like that it's scary how some people can just never feel guilt like people who make rumors about you, and could never feel guilt for it. It makes me so upset and again who really cares what I have to say all I care about is my beautiful, beautiful girl, our service dog he's not mine's name is Peter, but he works for Kairn to keep her safe and that makes me so happy that he keeps her safe when I don't know what's going on. I always say if I was a mother hen I would be OK. But I'm a papa bear now so that makes me happy. It makes me happy that I have a son and yeah.
I would die for my boy and I'm just happy that we get to live in a bubble, but I wanna never go back to work because my boss poisoned us and I have to deal with the aftermath there's not really trauma thank God, but there is some anger there I think because I didn't know what he was planning and I wish I would've been able to stop it and it makes me so happy that we're at a home now and I haven't really spoken to him in a few weeks I mean the anniversaries coming up, but it makes me sad. I try not to think about it anymore but then again you can't always protect the ones you love from everything.
