Chris-
I woke up this morning and I wanted to vomit. Don't ask me why I just felt like I was on another planet but then I realized why I felt so sick and so nauseous and wanted to retreat to the bathroom it was because it was the two-year anniversary of the girls being poisoned I couldn't even believe it because thank God we all got it when we did but we could've had a different we could've had a different you know ending which makes me so emotional and
so sad I'm just really happy that we were able to do things like you know, celebrate another year of life because we were supposed to. We were supposed to bury them if we had. We've been 10 minutes later that's no second to me at all I did was go to the grocery store to get milk and I didn't think that and what happened what happened? I just remember Liz telling me that she couldn't breathe on my whole whole world but I remember screaming so loud that the paramedics were already on the phone with me on their way in route and they took pity on me and were crying with me that made me more emotional than I have ever been in my entire life I don't really .
I don't really think about it very much because well you just can't otherwise you're going to have issues and I try not to think about it. It makes me very upset because I just want to live happily ever after with my person but apparently nowadays that's like committing a crime. Why can't people just except that we're in love and that is so upset I really wanted to just curl up in a ball and die when I thought she was flat lining and one, especially when they took me out and told me that she was flat lining. Then I remember when she gave birth or three miracle babies within the course of breeders I guess
I guess people would think that that would make me job and curl up into a ball but it did it because we always wanna kids it was just you know wasn't really you know thought about the time, but when I thought I lost her, my whole world was upside down I could never ever get over that like the fact that she was almost taken away from me over something so send senseless as I think we're really really upsets me the most is how could someone be that selfish .
I guess you don't really know anything till you get Hollywood because it's all about the money and fame maybe a surprise she pays at an early age but I don't feel like getting married.
I don't feel like getting married should be treated like a crime especially if you're both happy and there's no, financially hardship if you agree to spend the money equally and pay your bills on time, I say why not living lavish lifestyle lifestyle from time to time I don't think that you should have to feel bad about anything. I feel like you should just keep going and trying to make things right and makes me sad how people act at times but then again, what can you do? All I can do is hold her close and tell her that I love her
