Maddie -
I don't really hold Anger against JYP and I used to fantasize about getting revenge on him but it's not really worth it because it's not worth it to put my life at risk for his selfishness and his recklessness because I feel like by doing that then I would be no better than JYP and I don't want to be a loser. I don't want to have that nastiness I don't want to have that because I want I really would like to be happy. I don't want to have him I don't want to have this nastiness that's not what I want to do.
I want to be happy and I want to do things that I wasn't doing before. I went to help women who might be in a similar situation like me and I want to be able to cope and not be like mean I don't want to be a nasty person and I want to be a good person and it's been hard because there has been plenty of times in my life. I should've been ugly to people who were ugly me, but I never, I never thought about that and yeah but that's just not in the act. You cannot be a nasty person so I will continue to be nice and I will continue to try to be beautiful but it's really hard at times because I don't want to be a bad person. I don't want to be a nasty,
I don't wanna be a nasty person that's not me. I have never been a nasty person and I feel like if you're a nasty person then people aren't going to want to be with you and that's not what I'm gonna have. I wanna be a sweet, kind person I don't wanna be nasty.
I would like to be kind to people and it took me a really long time to get to this point in life because I used to have lots of anger with what happened to me but then, when I met my friends, I realize we've been through formula situation and they had her you know still there I love them and that's what I need to keep I cannot be a bad person.
You have to go in and try to be sweet. I still can't believe that I was in such a rush to grow up childish and foolish of me I don't know why I was in such a hurry, but I didn't understand why because people are mean to me as a kid, so then you think I'm a be if I grow up maybe maybe and life will be a little bit better but then it just gets harder.
I think you just need to be kind to everyone because you never know what a person is going through and I wouldn't wish that on nobody so I think I will just be Kind to everybody because that's how I don't want them to treat me so I want to be kind to everyone and watch everybody Floration to the best human being that they can be cause you don't have to be an asshole to get things but unfortunately, lots of people are.
