Loki x yn What are you doing to me Loki ?

Resurfaced trauma

You walk back to your room, in a slight daze. 'lucky me' what does that even mean? he's obviously trying to get under your skin... yeah, that's definitely it. You use your powers to change into pyjamas, your outfit shifts to (obviously long sleeved) loungewear, and hop into bed and eventually drift off to sleep, only you wish you hadn't.

Meanwhile: Sam, Bucky and Steve were in Steve's room talking, about you.

Bucky:'i just don't know what to do Steve, i've never seen her so unwell'

Steve:'i know buddy, we will talk to her tomorrow together'

Sam;' why are you so affected by this Bucky? she said its just a cold, right?'

Bucky; 'cuz she means alot to me, i remember talking to her about my past, and feeling so guilty about it all, and she was just there. She got me out of a bad place which is something that not even Steve could do. I just wanna help her but i feel... helpless? She helped me so much, she was like a therapist, but a really good one. it's like she set me free...she made me a better person'

Steve:' wow, i never knew that, i'm sorry buck'- he puts his hand on his shoulder.

Bucky:' i just want her to be okay'- he looks at the floor, he loves you so much, you're such a good friend to bucky, he's said before you remind him of his sister. so full of life, nothing could bring you down, even when life was hard you'd pretend it wasn't. And that's a hard thing to pull off.

meanwhile

Loki was sat in his room, bored out of his mind, he doesn't sleep well, at least you share that in common. An idea popped into his head... no... he can't... that's a total invasion of privacy... but then again you'd never know. He teleports into your room and hides in the shadows. He is watching you sleep peacefully, his mind is consumed by you, and who you are, he hasn't met someone so secretive... he sees himself in you. He watches smiling as you lay there tucked in, curled up like a ball. He noticed how cold your room was, you really are quite similar. Suddenly your breathing changed and you started to toss and turn. His look changed to confusion. Curiosity gets the better of him, he wants to see what is making you so restless. He uses his powers to see what your dreaming about, but wish he hadn't.

The dream (or should i say nightmare): You're back at the lab, strapped to the worn out chair that you've spent the majority of your life restricted to. You can't move...  you try to move but you're weak, they've suppressed your powers and strength, which makes you helpless.

'i'd give up if i were you'- its him 

you can't even turn your head to face him, not that you wanted to see his face again, although it was all you ever saw. 

Ellie: 'let me out or i'll kill you all' you shrieked as you still fought to escape

?;'you can try all you want, but you'd fail' he grins as he steps over to you.

a harsh slap to the face and you were quiet

?; 'that's better' he says as he grabs your hair and pulls it back, leaving your neck exposed.

Loki watches as his anger boils, he can't interfere in dreams but if he could this man would be beyond dead.

The man inches towards your neck and bites it, you scream in fear and refusal, you know what you're about to endure... come on Ellie wake up this isn't real

he forces his leg in between yours and says disgusting comments about how much easier this would be if you were dead and lifeless. Things that made your skin crawl.

he gets on top of you, and does the unthinkable.... for you it feels like hours, as you cry for it to stop, he chokes you to stop the screams of pain, you struggle for air, and in real life you feel yourself struggle to breathe almost as if you were reliving it all. You felt everything.