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Ikalabing limang kabanata - Abandonadong Omega

Napatitig ako sa labas ng bintana. Rayle's apartment is on the top of the mountain. Thus, we could see almost everything from our rooms.
I sighed.
Should I or should I not?
I was nervously fidgeting with my fingers. If ever I get my hopes up, I will surely get hurt. I don't know if I could still handle the pain if it happened twice. I will surely die of literal heartbreak.
"But what they told me makes me think about it thoroughly." I looked down.
When I heard the door of the balcony open, I looked at it. I saw Rayle's alpha coming out of Rayle's room.
He looked at me, smiled, and bowed his head. "Hello, you're still up?"
I slowly nodded my head. "Yeah," I answered, looking back at the scenery in front of me. "Usually, I was already dead asleep, but I couldn't."
"Too many things on your mind?"
I only uttered an "En" while nodding my head twice. Well, it was normal for me to talk to other alphas like this since I am not the type of person who likes to talk a lot now.
Since that day, I guess, I've changed a lot.
"Sorry for putting my nose in your business, but..." he paused, and I gazed at him; he looked at his back. I guess he was looking at Rayle. "I think you should investigate more. I know you are a capable omega, the one who has a lot of connections. With your power, I think without your family title, you can fight along side him. I
My forehead furrowed. Does he know about the things that happened to me? Akala ko ba isa lamang normal na alpha itong lalaking ito? Why do I feel like there is something more than an eye can see?
I shrugged my shoulders. "Well, like you said, I have my ways. However, he also has his own." Humawak ako sa railings at saka ko pinikit ang mga mata ko. Pinakiramdaman ko ang hangin na tumatama sa mukha ko. "I think about it. I think I have to stop myself first and see what happens. Though some people may think they're in love, those who know them aren't."
I didn't hear him speak. I guess that's what I want. But is that really what I want to happen? Does letting myself be eaten by jealousy and envy make it worth it? Will I still have my life after he finishes everything?
"I heard your circumstances," Rayle's alpha said. I looked at him, and he didn't look happy at all. Is he worried? " As Rayle talks about you, his heart seems to be aching. I couldn't stand it."
I chuckled. Right, a fine alpha like him felt the pain of their omegas. I want him to feel my pain too, but it wasn't easy, I guess.
I smiled sadly. Ah, what does it feel like again? As time flew by, bit by bit, I couldn't remember it.
"I'm sorry," I murmured, looking down at my feet. "I don't want them to feel a burden, so I don't usually tell them what happened to me, but I guess they seem to be feeling more burdened by it."
"Sometimes you have to lean on others in order to survive. Not every battle can be fought alone. At least accept their support."
Hindi na ako nakapagsalita pa at napaisip na lamang ng malalim. Right, they are always asking me if I am okay, and I always tell them I am. However, deep down inside me, I know that I am not okay at all. I just want to look strong and cool in front of them, to the point that I don't know what it feels like to be strong. My delusional mind makes me think that I am strong despite being weak.
I continually throw people aside whenever they're trying to help me, and it costs me a lot.
Napatingin ako kung saan nakatayo ang alpha ni Rayle at nakita ko naman na wala na siya roon. I guess he went back to Rayle's side.
I looked up at the sky. Suddenly, a conversation between me and my doctor flashed in my mind.
"If you continue letting yourself confine yourself during your heat, your life would be in great danger. You have an alpha; whether both of you are not in a relationship anymore or not, it was his responsibility. He marked you; who does he think he is abandoning like this?"
Abandoned.
My heart ached for a moment at those words. Isang salita lang, pero grabe ang sakit na nararamdman ko. Hindi ko akalain na ang mga kinakatakutan ng mga omega noon, nangyayari sa akin ngayon.
I closed my eyes, and I felt like I heard my doctor's voice saying, "Your life will only last at least three to five years if you can't stabilize your pheromones. You must seek help. You need his pheromones to calm your pheromones."
Ah, bakit ba ang hirap maging omega? O baka ako lang ang nahihirapan? The omegas in my family are all doing well. However, what happened to me? Why am I being punished like this? Did I do something wrong in my past life to suffer like this?
A tear escaped from my eyes. I tightly closed my eyes as I took a deep breath.
"Aoi?"
Napatingon ako sa ka ilang veranda ng kabilang kwarto at nakita ko naman SI Haru nakatayo roon.
"Umiiyak ka ba?" he asked worriedly.
I forced myself to smile and walked toward him. "Nope, may pumasok lang sa mga mata ko."
He looked at me suspiciously. Even though his eyes tell me he doesn't believe me, he still nodded his head.
"Aoi, why don't you try to change your resolve?" I glanced at Haru.
I know what he's thinking.
"I'll think about it."
"Aoi, you're my friend, my big brother. I want you to be happy. I want the best for you and for the rest of our group. I don't want you guys to suffer. Aoi, don't you think it was quite a childish act? Hiding your identity from your mate—that is what I'm talking about. If you were just being honest from the very beginning, this wouldn't happen at all, right? Alam ko na naisip mo na ito, and please consider that." He smiled before walking back to his room.
Everyone around me tells me the same thing.
If I am just being honest from the very beginning.