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I know that we should sort out all the things we have to sort out this night, but somehow, I feel like I don't want to. Was it because I was afraid? Or was it because I don't think that we still have a chance?
The glimmer of hope that I had been holding since the day we broke up turned to ashes as soon as he stopped our topic during the ride.
Also, being alone in a room with Takeru makes me feel nervous. The air seemed to change, and it was as if it were making me feel unable to breathe properly.
Nakahiga lang naman kaming dalawa; hindi pa nag-uumpisa ang usapan namin. But here I am, thinking of things about which I should speak up. Gusto ko naman sanang sabihin ang lahat sa kaniya pero wala talaga akong lakas ng loob.
His presence in a room with me stirred up a lot of memories in my head, and it undeniably had a great effect on me as my heart raced even faster with anticipation and fear.
Nasa iisang kama lang kami at ang tanging naghihiwalay lang sa aming dalawa ay isang unan. If I move or if he moves, we will touch each other unknowingly.
I secretly grip the quilt. "So? Are you not going to start?" I asked, acting as if I didn't feel anything at all.
"Earlier," he murmured.
Napalingon naman ako. "There's only me and you in this room. Why are you mumbling there? It's not like we're sharing a secret."
I rolled my eyes, but deep down inside me, pakiramdam ko sasabog na ako.
'We're not sharing a secret.' Shocks! Hindi nga ba? Sa ginagawa pa lamang naming dalawa ngayon, wait, no, wala kaming ginagawa. I mean, sa pagsasama-- no, mali rin.
Ah, pakiramdam ko gusto ko na lamang ilubog ang sarili ko sa lupa. Sa sitwasyon naming dalawa ngayon, this has to be kept a secret. I don't want to ruin Takeru's plan if he had one, and so their engagement.
Even if it hurts.
He cleared his throat and started again. "What I mean is the thing I said in the car while you were drinking."
"And what's with it?"
Gusto ko na lamang sapakin ang sarili ko dahil sa sinabi ko. Ayoko na marinig ang sagot niya, and I should have told him that it's okay to stop him from explaining, but this damn mouth slipped those words!
"Hindi ko gustong putulin ang usapan kanina," he said. I could feel his stare on me. "I just want to be in a secure and quiet place before we talk about it."
Napalingon naman ako sa kaniya and I flinched when I saw him staring at me intently.
Why? Why are you looking at me like that? Why do I feel like you still have the same feelings that we had before?
"And what about it?"
Silly me. I wanted to hear his words, but I am afraid. What if hindi ko magustuhan ang sasabihin niya? What if masaktan lang ako? The pain will surely triple if I hear something unpleasant.
"Actually, when we broke up, I came back at noon. But I didn't see you there. All I saw was the ring I gave you."
Napabalik sa kisame ang tingin ko. I feel like the pain that I felt when we broke up is like a wave crashing over me again, evoking the emotions I have long suppressed and tried to kill.
"You came back?" I asked, trying not to make my voice crack.
I didn't see him, but I could tell by the rustle of his pillow that he nodded his head.
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