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Ikadalawampu't Dalawang Kabanata - Ang Pagtatanggol ni Shion kay Aoi

Napatitig na lamang ako sa kisame ng apartment ko. I know that something is meant to happen sooner or later. But what happened earlier really caught me off guard. I mean, why did he do that? Was he the same? Unable to move forward, I mean.

But I don’t think so. I don’t think that was the case for him.

I closed my eyes, and my lips twitched a little when I remembered something. Right, there are only five weeks left before that so-called gland removal. Was it because of that that he did that?

Hindi naman talaga ako magpapatanggal ng gland. It was just a spur of the moment since my circle and I saw him with his fiancé at the wedding boutique, picking a wedding suit. Sino ba naman ang baliw na magpapahalata na naapektuhan ka ‘di ba? Mabuti na lang talaga at super supportive ng mga kaibigan ko.

And about Rayle’s words: I pondered about it, and his words still echoed in my mind as if he were keeping on repeating them to me. I closed my eyes and thought about why I should reveal my identity and dig deeper to know Takeru’s reason for breaking up with me. May alam ba sila na hindi ko alam at hindi nila maaring sabihin sa akin, or was it just an instinct?

Hindi ko na alam.

The idea of the things that might be Takeru’s reason for breaking up with me started to flash through my mind. Although all of it was beneficial to me, it still intrigued me.

I stood up and looked outside the window. The place where the apartment stands is a little far from the main city. But there are still places that are open overnight. I looked up and saw the sky, and it was clear as if there was no storm coming. The stars twinkled like the memories of me and Takeru twinkled in my mind.

"Oh goodness," I mumbled, massaging my temple. "I still keep on thinking about him. Paano ako makakapag move-on? May chance ba na maka-move-on ako?"

Para akong baliw na kausap ang sarili ko.

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Alam ko na kaya hindi ko sinasabi kung sino talaga ako ay para protektahan ang sarili ko at ang pamilya ko. Alam ko na mayroong mga taong mapagsamantala and ayoko na magaya ako sa isa ko na pinsan na pinagsamantalahan. Pero sa mga nangyayari ngayon, after five years, I started to wonder if it was still a good choice.

I doubt it is.

Natatakot ako na baka pag malaman ni Takeru ang totoo ay mas lalo pang lumayo kami sa isa’t isa. If sinabi ko lang sa kaniya noon kung sino ba talaga ako, if I didn’t let him break up with me without hearing his reason, if only I held onto him, hindi sana kami maghihiwalay. Sobrang dami ng pwede naming maiiwasan kung sinabi ko lang ang totoo—kung sinabi ko lang kung sino talaga ako.

Nakakatakot na baka sisihin niya ako.

Napakagat ako ng ibabang labi at saka nahigang muli. My actions to hide my identity are only to protect myself and my family. I didn’t even think of him.

A tear escaped from my eyes.

I really did do something bad to him. I want to, but I don’t want to ruin the things he built in the five years of our separation.

The thought of Takeru being deeply hurt by his concealment makes my heart hurt too. Nai-imagine ko na ang emotion sa mga mata ni Takeru sa ngayon pa lang. That betrayal mixed with longing: when he finally knows the truth, will he still love me? If not, will he understand me?

Whatever. There’s still time, and if he doesn’t understand me, if he doesn’t love me anymore, if the time comes, I will still tell him who I truly am. If and only if there’s a chance.

Because of the weight of my thoughts, I shook my head and never thought about it for now.

I smiled when I remembered the things that happened in the car earlier. The moment I’ve missed for the last five years happened again.