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Ikadalawampu't Isang Kabanata - Ang Pagtatanong

Para akong timang na hindi alam ang gagawin. Nagmadali akong umuwi ng apartment ko nang matapos akong bumili ng mga kailangan ko sa convenience store. Up until now, sobrang lakas pa rin ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Hindi ko alam kung anon a ang dapat kong gawin dahil ang utak ko ay na-stuck up sa moment na magkasama kami kanina ni Takeru.

Shit! I don't know if I could handle this kind of stimulation.

I mean, what if this triggered my heat again? Kahit na amoy na amoy ko ang pheromones ni Takeru kanina, kahit na gustong gusto ko na maghubad sah arapan niya, pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I know I let him hold my hand, but I don't want to do anything beyond that. After all, even though he took the initiative to hold my hand earlier, it was still considered cheating.

He already has a fiancé. So, I am hesitating about whether I should run away or let him do what he wants. I want to run away since I don't want to be the reason for him to lose all the things he built up, but I also want him to do what he wants since I know that's also what I want him to do to me.

Napahawak naman ako sa likod ng leeg ko. We're bonded, but lately, I don't feel the pain in my nape.

Does it mean that all I have to do is be near him so that I can't feel that pain anymore? If so, could I tolerate seeing him talk to the other omega, his fiancé?

I shook my head. No, I don't think so.

Habang tumatagal kasi mas lalo kong nararamdaman ang pagiging possessive ko. Alam ko na break na kami, na wala na talaga kami at ilang taon an ang nakalipas simula noong maghiwala kaming dalawa pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin magawang bumitaw.

Alam ko naman na may pag-asa, pero hindi ko rin naman gusto na mawala ang mga pinaghirapan ni Takeru.

Because my feelings felt conflicted, I dialed Rayle's number. He's the one free right now since he was on vacation leave with his alpha.

"Hello? Wow, iba talaga pag mayaman, ano? Nagagawang tumawag." He laughed. "So, what's the matter?" he asked.

I rolled my eyes. Kahit kelan talaga ang omega na ito, sarap sapakin.

"Rayle," I called him.

"Hmm? Is there something wrong?"

I took a deep breath and asked, "Are you free to talk right now?"

Narinig ko naman ang kaluskos sa telepono at alam ko naman na katabi ni Rayle ang alpha niya that time.

"Sure, I am. So, what's the matter? Did something happen? I mean, those people, did they do something to you again?" he asked continuously.

Umiling naman ako kahit na alam ko na hindi niya ako nakikita. "No, they did nothing to me, though that woman, his sister, warned me." I rolled my eyes again.

"Wow, ibang klase talaga mga kapatid niyang ex-boyfriend mo, ano? Manang mana sa kanilang mga magulang. Speaking of, 'yung magulang niyang ex-boyfriend mo, gusto akong i-partner sa anak niya. Wow, patawa ba siya? Ano na bang nagawa niyang anak niyang alpha na kapatid niyang ex-boyfriend mo? Wala namang ibang alam ang alpha na iyon kundi ang mag-cling sa ex-boyfriend mo na may power sa kanilang pamilya."

Natawa naman ako. "So, what did your alpha say?"

"Oh, they shook them with a notice."

"Notice?" I asked, confused.

"Uh-huh. Notice of the court."

Parehas naman kaming natawa ni Rayle sa sinabi niya. Sabi ko na nga ba, hindi ako nagkamali. Rayle's alpha isn't that weak. I mean, nagpapanggap lang siyag manager, but in fact, he's really strong. Hindi pa sa amin sinasabi ni Rayle what kind of work his alpha does aside from being his manager, but I know that he is not a simple alpha. Well, wala namang simpleng alpha.

"Oh, right, back to the topic," Rayle said.

I could guess he was smiling at me. Well, by just doing that, he could feel that his alpha somehow avenged me. Wala naman iyang problema sa akin. "It's okay, right?"

Tumango ako kahit na hindi niya kita. "Yes, [ero hindi iyan ang problema rito. I want to talk to you about something."

I could feel that he smiled. Of course, I seldom tell them my problem and talk about it. Thus, whenever I did, they were all within earshot.

"Yes, what is it?" His voice sounded warm and familiar. Instantly, it put me at ease.

"I..."

"I? What? Bakit hindi mo kumpletohin?"

Umirap na naman ako. Kapag kausap ko talaga itong omega na ito napapairap ako palagi. "Could you please stop teasing me and listen first?"

"Then you should start. Don't hesitate, okay?"

I uttered an un and said, "I ran into Takeru today."

I heard him say, "Uh-huh. You two are working together. It was given. So, what happened? How did that go?"

I took a deep breath. I consciously rubbed the mark on my name. I recounted everything that happened in the car. How I met him in the office, how he tried to talk to me, how Takeru ended up offering me a ride, and that I chose to be dropped off at the convenience store instead of my address I told him that even though I want to be dropped off in front of my apartment, now isn't the right time, and there will be no more next time.

As I spoke and recalled everything that happened in the car, including the fact that he held my hand during the ride, my heart rate kept on increasing. Hindi ko alam kung may sakit na ba ako sa puso dahil pakiramdam ko nao-overwhelm na ako sa emosyon na nararamdaman ko.

Rayle listened to me attentively, and when I finished, there was only a thoughtful silence. Hindi ko alam kung magugustuhan ba nila ang ginawa ko or what?

"Alam mo, Aoi, sometimes I wanted to smack your head para naman matauhan ka. Alam ko na you've been through a lot from the past-the good and the difficulty." Tumango naman ako kahit hindi ako nakikita ni Rayle. Nahiga ako sa kama at napatitig sa kisame. "But, you know, I think you should ask for his explanation first before doing something like this. I mean, put a closure to what you feel. Sa tingin ko sa ganoong paraan ka lamang makakaramdam na pwede mo na siya bitawan or hindi kaya na pwede mo siya bigyan ng chance. And maybe it's worth considering revealing who you truly are-letting him see the real you."

"You mean..."

"Your status and background. I think kailangan mo nang i-consider na sabihin sa kaniya iyon or hindi kaya ipaalam sa lahat ang tungkol doon."

Napakagat naman ako nang madiin sa aking ibabang labi. I tasted something metal-like in my mouth.

'Oh, it bleeds.'

"But, Rayle, I'm afraid..."

I heard him sighed. Rayle's voice softened and said, "I-no, we understand your fear, Aoi. But remember, sometimes, closure comes from confronting those fears. So, even though you're afraid, I think you should stop running away." He stopped, but I didn't speak. I know he's not done yet. "Aoi, our dear big brother Omega, aren't you tired of running away?" he asked.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko. In the end, Rayle didn't say anything and just told me to take my time. After I thanked him, our call ended. I absentmindedly looked at the paper on my side table.

His card contains his private phone number.

Puno ang utak ko ng mga salitang binitawan ni Rayle sa akin. The prospect of giving Takeru a chance and considering revealing my identity was hard. I know, nararamdaman ko, that there is a glimmer of hope that stirred within me-hope that maybe I could bring everything back to its place.

But, I am really afraid.

'Aren't you tired of running away?'

Running away.

Of course, I am. I already wanted to rest a few times, but I couldn't. It's easy to say that I wanted to give up, that I wanted to let go already, that I didn't want to run away and reveal everything. But the thing is, he's not single. He already has his fiancé, so what am I going to do?

Even though I reveal everything, what will happen? Hindi lamang ako ang masisira kundi pati na rin ang pamilya ko at ang pinaghirapan ni Takeru.

Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin?