He Still Doesnt Want Me(FanVersion)

13

Note: This book is a direct continuation from where the original author left. 

 "I am poison love, everything I have ever touched rots", those words spun around my head in loop and unknowingly a heaviness had made its way to my heart until someone tapped me out of this never-not-ending gloomy zone.

"Scaredypup, are you alright!?" Before I could form a sentence, Raven quips "You are not, and you are blurting out right this moment what's bothering you?" I look around and see Alpha Xavier in conversation with the mechanic, while the car being repaired and Jenna leaning against the wall, busy on the phone still pulling off the picture-perfect modelsque look.

"There's nothing that you already don't know, lately I am overthinking whether moving forward in the future at least one of us would be happy?" He gave me one of his Serious serious stare.

Meanwhile Alpha Xavier announced that the car repairing was done. Jenna stretched her arms and asked "Does that mean we can start on our journey again?" rather queasy.
"I am afraid, it's already getting dark, we probably have to stay for the night and start on our journey tomorrow morning."

We checked into a nearby inn, our cordial receptionist took the ids and gave the keys to our rooms.
We thanked her and began climbing the stairs.

If you know me, you would know, no matter the situation/scenario I am in, my clumsiness always gives an enthralling performance to the onlookers and secondhand embarrassment for yours truly. And by repeating history, I tripped and slipped down the stairs.

Or so I thought, before a muscular arm grabbed my waist. I stared at the blonde head and sighed. "We might as well name you The Clumsy Scaredypuppy, who wouldn't go a day without being sloppy" said Raven with a snort laugh. "How I wish, I could wipe off that smile off of your face with a sleek knee to your 'where the sun doesn't shine' ", I whispered with a death glare.

Raven, cocked an eyebrow and pulled me closer, "Try me Scaredypup!" I narrowed my eyes and was about to come with a fun retort when, I heard someone cleared their throat. "We need to start tomorrow at sharp 6, its better all of us head to sleep" said Alpha Xavier in a gravel tone.

I realized how close me and Raven where standing and suddenly pushed against his chest to stand upright and put some distance between us. Jenna's face matched her hair color, she gave me a "I will devour you" look and marched off to her room. 

Awkwardness would be an understatement, about the vibe I felt inside our room. Jenna shared a room with Raven and I (fortunately or unfortunately) shared a room with you know whom. Had it been Raven we would have chatted about everything and nothing and argued about whether the sky is blue or has no color. But pindrop silence stretched the crooks, crevices, and borders of our room.
Our room was mediumish in terms of geometry, had a queen-sized bed, a rather stiff looking sofa and thankthemoongoddess a pretty clean loo.

Alpha Xavier had already plopped himself on the sofa and I took the bed. I was sizing up the room to kill some boredom, scanned my eyes along the roof, looked at the windows and imagined a Victorian window instead of the present window, criticized the paint stains on the wall, when suddenly my phone buzzed.

"I feel like I need some air", messaged Raven. "Jenna is already asleep, and I am staring at the ceiling thinking about getting my hands on the new PS5. I smiled at the message and typed, "same here, It feels like there is nothing else left to talk about". Raven pinged, "By the way Scaredypup, today's stair incident was legit graceful, out of all the falls I have seen of yours this season" with a laughing emoji. I giggled and wrote, "SS24 Falls Collection – by Clumsy Ash". We kept on sending funny memes and I didn't realize, I was snickering.

"Does, Raven brings you more happiness than me?" I was stunned into silence for a moment before I spoke, "He is-s my best friend, I can share everything with him without any judgement" .

Alpha Xavier directed his ocean blue eyes towards me, his intense stare made me feel naked and self-conscious. The pace of my heartbeat soared Outta of the blue, cheeks obviously must have obtained an orange tint of shame.

I was embarrassed to the core that a mere eye contact from my mate can have such effect on me still.
He stared at me which felt like a lifetime before muttering," I don't think you deserve me Ash".