Confusion (Tom Kaulitz)

Red bikini

I just got home a few minutes ago with Mario. I was already very angry at him so I instantly got to my room. I know you are wondering now " oh, why she is angry always?" but to answer your question is simple. Mario is sometimes a dick. I can't help it though, he is just like this. He always was like this. He doesn't really care about other peoples feelings but yet he is my best friend and I think he will always be. Whenever I had rough times, the only one by my side was always him. Not my mom,not my dad and defenitely not my siblings. Anyways.

I was sitting on the edge of my bed thinking about tonight. If I don't do this maybe by tomorrow I would be dead. I have to do this. I have to protect myself. After this night ends I would end all contacts with Tom. He can't just do this to me. I am a human. I have a heart. I have a future ahead of me,not like him. He would probably just die in this shit hole while I would have a family,kids,a beautiful house and.... Oh I am so stupid. I have to get ready tho, my digital clock says that it's 5:40PM.

I made my way to the bathroom to get a shower. I started with my hair and after washing it properly I put it in a bun. Cool,now my body. I would need to shave,mainly my bikini line. I picked up the rasor and started shaving my legs than my armpits and after that my bikiniline. I was almost ready but suddenly I saw blood pouring down my leg and into the warm water. I cutted myself. Perfect. Fucking perfect. I quickly washed off the foam from my body and stepped out of the shower. I grabbed some cotton pads and some blue spirit and started gently rubbing the cotton pad on my now bloody skin.

After I finished I got to the sink and washed my face and my teeth. I put on some face cream and a little bit of incoloured chapstick because my lips were dry. I made my way back to my room and started searching for a swim suit.

"Jesus. I don't have anything good. I don't have anything that's not a grandma looking swim suit." I cursed through my breath. As I put my hands in my head and turned around I was met by a beautiful red bikini and a little note carefully putted on my bed. I haven't seen it when I got to my room. A shiver got down my spine as I opened the little note and saw a messy writing and it said "Put this on. Tom." Was he serious? He even got in my room? How was this possible? However I know he had his ways so it wasn't an absolute surprise.

I putted on the beautiful bright red bikini and stared at my own reflection in the mirror. I was beautiful in that bikini but if it wasn't from Tom I would have loved it.

As I stared at myself I looked over to the clock. 6:50PM. I assumed Tom was already in front of the building waiting for me. I putted on a simple black short dress and my now worn out black converse. I was ready to go and grabbed my little purse. I quickly walked over to Mario's room to say goodbye.

"Mario I'm off." I said coldly.

" You look good." he said as he looked me up an down. " Take care Lu." he added and I just slammed his bedroom door shut and walked off the front door down to the entrance of the building.

As I walked down and out the door I saw Tom leaned against his car.

"Nice fit. Did you put on my gift?" he asked while smirking and analyzing me.

"Did I had other choice than that?" i asked him irritantly.

"You know, I don't believe you. You have to show me so I can trust you." he said while his smirk got even bigger than before.

"Are you serious? No chance I would show you that."

"Wrong answer." and with that he walked up to me and pulled my dress up while looking at my bikini and my body. He started grinning to himself and licked his lip ring.

" What the fuck!" I shouted at him as I grabbed my dress from his hands and pulled it down.

"Now I know that you are not lying."