Confusion (Tom Kaulitz)

I love you

   It was actually time for our first ever date. We had some other 'dates' but I don't think you can name it like that.

All day I was thinking about Tom. I was going to give him one last chance. Throughout the day I sat Mario down and told him everything about my feelings and ideas,how nicer would be if Tom would always behave like this. Of course I got a big disapproval but I know Mario very well and in the end he always gave in.

I always considered myself a beautiful woman,and many said so. I never liked heavy makeup and bitchy clothes,so today was just as always. I put on a simple long black dress that cupped my body perfectly and my only black high heels,I carefully put my hair in a slick high ponytail and I did a very natural smokey eye. I think for a date is perfect.

Here in Rome is hot,so I didn't carried with me a coat or jacket. Grabbing my purse I placed in it my phone and a little pocket knife,you never know what could happen. And I still didn't trusted Tom enough. I mean,he just came here to apologize and I was already going on a date with him,alone..

I grabbed my keys and blew a kiss for Mario saying 'I love you' and 'bye' and I was off.

As I opened the door, Tom was already in front of the house with a bouquet of tulips in his hands. My eyes instantly lit up..he remembered my favourite flowers.

He had a big,proud smile plastered on his face and his eyes traveled down my body every so often.

As I approached him he instantly gave me the bouquet and took my hand in his,gently lifting it to his lips and pressed a soft kiss on my hand. I blushed extremely.

"You look beautiful." he said in his usual sensual low voice,that always sends shivers down my spine.

I looked up at him,we locked eyes and I couldn't help but to stare at his eyes. They were so beautiful and hypnotic, I could immerse myself in them.

"Thank you." I said as he opened the car door for me. I sat down,he shut the door and walked around the car,opening his door side and sitting in his seat.

He pressed on the gas and we were off,leaving behind us a cloud of dust.

The whole ride was quiet,I didn't wanted to break this perfect soothing silence. Soon the big buildings disappeared behind us in the distance and I saw that we were going out of town. I started to panic, I wasn't ready to be kidnapped again.

"T-Tom? Where are we going?" I asked almost in a whisper. I was very afraid what will be his answer but he actually surprised me.

"Don't worry,I will never do something to hurt you." He chuckled. "There is this beautiful restaurant by a little lake. It's not that far." he exclaimed. This made me relax a bit. He knew that I still didn't put my trust in him and he was actually understanding. The old Tom would hit me and scream at me by now for not trusting him. I started do fall even more for him.

This one month actually helped us,mainly Tom. We had time to think about ourselvs,us,the other and the life without each other. Tom really made a progress,he started to change,to change for me. This melted my heart,he actually loved me,and I loved him back. He was the one for me,I was sure about that. I never ever in my life felt so good with a man as with him. He gave me protection,pleasure,love,but not only,he gave me comfort and he was like a bigger brother to me who always looked after me. He was my family and the love of my life. As much as he pushed me away from him,I always came back..because I loved him. He hurt me so much but I always found the comfort and protection in him,that I needed.

Soon we were in front of a big building,located literally in the middle of nowhere. I was beautiful and screamed royalty. I instantly felt out of place as Tom walked me into the restaurant and I saw only high-end people there. They had expensive suits and dresses,the wine they were drinking was much more than my entire paycheck for two months,but to my surprise no one looked down on me. Actually they didn't even looked in my direction.